chew. swallow.

Ten Rules for Being Human

by Cherie Carter-Scott

1.	You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it's yours to keep for the entire period.
2.	You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called, "life."
3.	There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately "work."
4.	Lessons are repeated until they are learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.
5.	Learning lessons does not end. There's no part of life that doesn't contain its lessons. If you're alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned.
6.	"There" is no better a place than "here." When your "there" has become a "here", you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."
7.	Other people are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.
8.	What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.
9.	Your answers lie within you. The answers to life's questions lie within you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.
10.	You will forget all this.

sad day

i nominate this week as one of my top 10 worst-weeks-ever.



I wish I wasn't always wrong
I wish it wasn't always my fault
The finger that you're pointing
Has knocked me on my knees
And all you need to know is

I wonder what my mom and dad would say
If I told them that I cry each day
It's hard enough to live so far away

I wish it wasn't always cold
I wish I wasn't always alone
When the party is over,
How will I get home?
And all you need to know is

I'm so sorry.

i should have bought the 'huggable buddies' doll in coles yesterday.
really want a hug rite now.
can't get a warm tight hug, a smiling monkey doll hug will be better than nothing.

highlight of the day: broke my very first plate tonight, believe it or not, today's the first time i broke a plate. really hope it's not a bad sign. and tomorrow i have exam :(

flash!

whoaa! study week goes so fast! i'm so not ready for exam D'X

but i can't wait the time exams finished, holiday~ melbourne~
yeah, i'm going to melbourne this holiday to visit my sister ehehe
three weeks there, everybody said it's too long, well i think so too but whatever :/
sigh.. i suppose to study now not blogging about unimportant stuffs :(
but it's really hard for me to concentrate these days, just a little noise and i'm distracted Y.Y
well, gotta sleep now, tomorrow will be another long, tiring and stressful day.
good luck for me. and everybody that has exams this month.

how cute is this! and so students these days XD

the pic quality is so bad :( can u read the books' cover?
the older sister's book cover said 'how to make a mess and blame it on your sister for DUMMIES'
and the younger sister's book cover is 'avoiding blame for DUMMIES' XD
this is so my sisters and me! we always blame each other.
aww, kinda miss them now, miss the fights and everything :(
time just can't go back, can it?

aha!

hahaha.. if this is true then i think all the guys in the world are 'boys' ;p
wait, but actually.. hmm.. there're 'men' out there, i actually know one..
umm, but lemme keep this thought to myself :)

so true..

randomness

either way i'm still beautiful ;p

exception

i'm dying for this!

barriers

i believe everybody has barriers blocking themselves with outside world, invisible barrier.
some may only have one or two. the less barrier people have the more open they are.
i think i have quite a lot barriers.
i built walls to feel safe. to not get hurt easily. even sometimes i feel lonely inside it.
there're times when i open the door to let people come inside my barrier. to let them know me, understand me.
if you know me as cool, not much words, confident person, then you're still completely outside the walls.
if you know me as a always laugh, cheerful, and confident person, you just get in to the second wall.
the third and fourth walls you can find out by knowing me more.
the fifth wall is completely locked.
yeah, overall i have five barriers. how many do you have?

a lil bit encouragement

i'm losing myselftrying to compete with everyone elseinstead of just being mei don't know where to turni've been stuck in this routinei need to change my waysinstead of always being weak
i don't want to be afraidi wanna wake up feeling beautiful today and know that i'm okaycause everyones perfect in their usual ways.so seei just wanna believe in me
the mirror can liecause it can't show you what's insideand it can tell you your full of liesit's amazing what you can hidejust by putting on a smile
i'm quickly finding outi'm not about to break downnot todayi guess i always knewthat i had all the strengthto make it through
so see now i believe in me

-demi lovato's believe in me

desperate post

this is me being so desperate and stress.
if you don't like to read negatives, hopeless words, don't read this.
when you're waiting on the traffic light to turn green or when you're waiting for the chance to cross the street at 5pm traffic, have you ever had the of just throwing yourself out to the road? i had that idea today.
'how if i just walk now? three steps. just three small steps.'
crazy rite? of course i didn't take that three steps, if i did, you won't see this post.
i'm so stressed! assignment due date is so close but i can't move on because i can't submit my answer! damn perdisco keeps showing error error!
i have tried three times! three times doing long questions that require at least 1 and a half hour to finish! i almost memorise the numbers now!
sigh...
well, the horrible day hasn't ended yet.
just now, i just had more horrible thought.
'should've just thrown myself to the traffic just now'
even myself can't believe this idea can pop up too..
i'm so disappoint and sad.. and i can't tell you the reason, but obviously not about uni or study, i'm not that into study that can make me regret of not being dead. hm? sounds weird. lol.
well, there's always something that you won't know from a person. everybody has a secret.
and this is my secret. i keep it to myself so i can still be myself.
i'm so tired..
well, hope your day is better than me.
and hope tomorrow can be better..

if love were enough

Vezi mai multe peTeava.ro

i started watching grey's anatomy recently and only up to season 2.
this is my favorite episode so far.
i laughed and cried in this episode.
i like bonnie, the girl with metal pole cut through her body, she ended up dead here which is a shame :(
what makes me so touched is her last words to her fiance:
"that if love were enough, i'd still be here with you"

ilovequote

"Time elapses too slowly for those who wait, too quickly for those who fear, it is too long for those who enjoy themselves, but for those who love time, time is eternal".
-Lady Jane (in Princess Diana's funeral)

touched

i have only one word to decribe her. amazing. she is amazing!
love her so much! when will she come to perth? i'll absolutely go to her concert, even buy the vip ticket! love her voice. love this song. this is legend..wait for it..daryyy!!!! XD

a good friday :)

Vezi mai multe peTeava.ro

this is so funny.. my favorite episode from how i met your mother.
the joke that barney said in 1:17 is so suitable for good friday rite? lol
enjoy the long weekend fellas!
have a good friday :)

undescribable

you know, there's always a small conversation with friends that you will remember for the rest of you life, even though it's just a meaningless chit-chat and nobody remembers to have that conversation but you.
i remember my friends ever talked about what type of boys suits us the most. hahaha well, typically girls talk.
so my friends mentioned the types that they think suit each of us the most, but they stopped at me for quite long time. they can't think what type of guys suits me the most, they looked at my face and their brows curled. then, one of them, angel i believe, said she thinks my type will be the one that really really loves me, 100%, inside out.
that time, i didn't understand why they think like that and only thought that's good, who doesn't want being loved 100% right?
but now i understand. i'm a hard one.
i don't open my heart easily. i don't give my love easily. i don't care much.
i'm selfish, moody, and easily changed. the last one really is true, i change like weather.
i'm a coward, i don't like responsibility, i hate facing serious problems, hate letting people down and disappoint them so i hide the truth.
man.. i'm awful! if i'm a guy i won't fall in love with me. haha..
feel sorry for you who ever liked and like me.
this is just the way i am.

unplayed piano

hey guys, have u heard of Damien Rice?
his songs are brilliant!
this is one of my favorites :)



love his cannonball too! a great song it is :D
the connoisseur of great excuse and blower's daughter are very nice as well.
oh i love acoustic ♥

don't matter

my favorite tv show :)
you know what i love the most about how I met you mother? except for the funny jokes that make my days of course. i love their friendship. they share everything, help each other solve problems, make fun of each other, laugh and cry together, intervene each other's negatives (s4e04 XD).
i envy them.
well, anyway, my favorite character is ted, he's so funny and romantic! the blue horn he stole for robin, he set up the room full of candles and string quartet for robin, the two minutes date with stella. i like his 'she might be the one', his optimistic in finding his soulmate..
he is just so cutee!
can't understand robin and stella left him. ckckck.
well, just wanna share this because i'm so into himym these days.
abandon study and keep watching it, even i've ever watched it before.
know it's bad but laziness always win :(
oh, btw, hello :D long time didn't add something here haha
just busy these days, try to keep pace with uni life plus work.
okay then, long life people! cheers :)

five to go :)

Hello :) today is 24th january 2011.
which means 5 days more, this time 7pm, i'll be on a plane flying from singapore to medan.
oh, just how i can't wait for that!
but the problem is i'll have a whole day in singapore since my perth-singapore flight is midnight so i'll arrive in Changi airport at 6am. sighh.
wondering what should i do in singapore :/
and another problem is i'll have final exam right before i go back and i don't have any mood to study at all. all i think now is go home go home go home :(
but still, have to study. can't afford failing.
maybe i'll hit my head to wall if i fail. won't be able to stand the guiltiness.
so... have to off now! off to watch TV. hahaha.
i know. i know. i don't suppose to watch TV, but it can't be helped. i love this drama!
i promise will study after that and whole day tomorrow. promise! X(

i♥quotes

sad happy ending

This is a song that i won't skip everytime my itouch plays it.
This song remains unchanged as my berry's ringtone.
This song will always be one of my favourites.

a quick 6 mins

my parent is traditional and oriental type who think 17th is still too early for their daughter to have boyfriend; will always ask who their children go out with, who are the friends, and end up with 'be careful' and 'don't get home too late'; not allow their children to go clubbing; will scold you if they hear dirty word comes out from your mouth; strictly teach you to behave politely if meet seniors; see rice as a compulsory for lunch and dinner.

i just had a call with my dad, and as usual he asked me what did i have for dinner.
i hate when he asked this question especially now when my aunt is not home (which means nobody cooks; oh yeah, i'm terrible in cooking ;p) but can't lie to him so i honestly answered 'bread'. as i said before, my parent sees rice as a compulsory for lunch and dinner, so in their opinion, bread is not enough for dinner.
when i answered him, i thought he will, as usual, say 'haiyah, only bread? it won't make you full, go get something else!'
but i only heard a chuckle. a sad chuckle.

the way i am

I Believe...

That just because two people argue,
It doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
It doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...
That we don't have to change friends if
We understand that friends change.

I Believe....
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.

Same goes for true love.

I Believe....
That you can do something in an instant
That will give you heartache for life..

I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time
To become the person I want to be.

I Believe...
That you should always leave loved ones with
Loving words. It may be the last time you see them..

I Believe...
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...
That we are responsible for what
We do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe....
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe...
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had
And what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe...
That it isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe...
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
But, we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...
Two people can look at the exact same
Thing and see something totally different.

I Believe....
That even when you think you have no more to give, when
A friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

'The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
They just make the most of everything.'

happy new year :)

so it's 2011 already. i really hope this year will be better than 2010.
but today, the first day of 2011, i can't feel any happiness.
i'm in pain. and 80% of the pain comes from bloody mosquito's bites!!
i got like 10 mosquito bites! all of them swell like balloons and they hurt! and so itchy!
i hate mosquitoes! i hate insects! i don't even disturb them, why they have to give me such pain?! i know they have to live by sucking blood and i really don't mind let them suck my blood, it won't kill me so who cares! but why they have to make my arm, leg swell, hurt, and itchy like this?? i'm not exaggerating okay.
let me show you what have these horrible, filthy insects done to me!

can you see how big the swell? X'(

disgusting right. uhuhuhu Y.Y

and there're more than 10 bites, smaller ones, this is the biggest one.
can you tell me how i can still happy with such pain?