this is me being so desperate and stress.
if you don't like to read negatives, hopeless words, don't read this.
when you're waiting on the traffic light to turn green or when you're waiting for the chance to cross the street at 5pm traffic, have you ever had the of just throwing yourself out to the road? i had that idea today.
'how if i just walk now? three steps. just three small steps.'
crazy rite? of course i didn't take that three steps, if i did, you won't see this post.
i'm so stressed! assignment due date is so close but i can't move on because i can't submit my answer! damn perdisco keeps showing error error!
i have tried three times! three times doing long questions that require at least 1 and a half hour to finish! i almost memorise the numbers now!
sigh...
well, the horrible day hasn't ended yet.
just now, i just had more horrible thought.
'should've just thrown myself to the traffic just now'
even myself can't believe this idea can pop up too..
i'm so disappoint and sad.. and i can't tell you the reason, but obviously not about uni or study, i'm not that into study that can make me regret of not being dead. hm? sounds weird. lol.
well, there's always something that you won't know from a person. everybody has a secret.
and this is my secret. i keep it to myself so i can still be myself.
i'm so tired..
well, hope your day is better than me.
and hope tomorrow can be better..
if you don't like to read negatives, hopeless words, don't read this.
when you're waiting on the traffic light to turn green or when you're waiting for the chance to cross the street at 5pm traffic, have you ever had the of just throwing yourself out to the road? i had that idea today.
'how if i just walk now? three steps. just three small steps.'
crazy rite? of course i didn't take that three steps, if i did, you won't see this post.
i'm so stressed! assignment due date is so close but i can't move on because i can't submit my answer! damn perdisco keeps showing error error!
i have tried three times! three times doing long questions that require at least 1 and a half hour to finish! i almost memorise the numbers now!
sigh...
well, the horrible day hasn't ended yet.
just now, i just had more horrible thought.
'should've just thrown myself to the traffic just now'
even myself can't believe this idea can pop up too..
i'm so disappoint and sad.. and i can't tell you the reason, but obviously not about uni or study, i'm not that into study that can make me regret of not being dead. hm? sounds weird. lol.
well, there's always something that you won't know from a person. everybody has a secret.
and this is my secret. i keep it to myself so i can still be myself.
i'm so tired..
well, hope your day is better than me.
and hope tomorrow can be better..
Ughh... please, please, please,
ReplyDeleteplease, please, please, PLEASE!!!
Don't ever think about this kind of thought again :(
i hate this topic, i hate to see or feel losses...
i always get mad to my friend if they even have a slightest thought about that... and i can't be mad at you
just please don't ever think about throwing yourself again
if you did, remember that there is always someone there (at least your blog) always wish for your well being...
People get desperate once in a while, i did too
i had that kind of thought too actually, but i always laugh at it because i always set my eyes to see the rainbow that followed.
so Please, just again Please don't ever Think to Throw yourself again :(
*Pray something good happen to you right now while writing this*
-S-
:)
ReplyDeletethank you. that's so sweet of you.
hope something good happen to you too :)