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2011-06-14T23:34:00.004+08:00

Ten Rules for Being Human

by Cherie Carter-Scott

1.	You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it's yours to keep for the entire period.
2.	You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called, "life."
3.	There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately "work."
4.	Lessons are repeated until they are learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.
5.	Learning lessons does not end. There's no part of life that doesn't contain its lessons. If you're alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned.
6.	"There" is no better a place than "here." When your "there" has become a "here", you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."
7.	Other people are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.
8.	What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.
9.	Your answers lie within you. The answers to life's questions lie within you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.
10.	You will forget all this.

sad day

2011-06-05T20:02:00.004+08:00

i nominate this week as one of my top 10 worst-weeks-ever.

I wish I wasn't always wrong
I wish it wasn't always my fault
The finger that you're pointing
Has knocked me on my knees
And all you need to know is

I wonder what my mom and dad would say
If I told them that I cry each day
It's hard enough to live so far away

I wish it wasn't always cold
I wish I wasn't always alone
When the party is over,
How will I get home?
And all you need to know is

I'm so sorry.

i should have bought the 'huggable buddies' doll in coles yesterday.
really want a hug rite now.
can't get a warm tight hug, a smiling monkey doll hug will be better than nothing.

highlight of the day: broke my very first plate tonight, believe it or not, today's the first time i broke a plate. really hope it's not a bad sign. and tomorrow i have exam :(

flash!

2011-06-02T23:42:00.004+08:00

whoaa! study week goes so fast! i'm so not ready for exam D'X

but i can't wait the time exams finished, holiday~ melbourne~
yeah, i'm going to melbourne this holiday to visit my sister ehehe
three weeks there, everybody said it's too long, well i think so too but whatever :/
sigh.. i suppose to study now not blogging about unimportant stuffs :(
but it's really hard for me to concentrate these days, just a little noise and i'm distracted Y.Y
well, gotta sleep now, tomorrow will be another long, tiring and stressful day.
good luck for me. and everybody that has exams this month.

how cute is this! and so students these days XD

the pic quality is so bad :( can u read the books' cover?
the older sister's book cover said 'how to make a mess and blame it on your sister for DUMMIES'
and the younger sister's book cover is 'avoiding blame for DUMMIES' XD
this is so my sisters and me! we always blame each other.
aww, kinda miss them now, miss the fights and everything :(
time just can't go back, can it?

aha!

2011-05-31T19:28:00.002+08:00

hahaha.. if this is true then i think all the guys in the world are 'boys' ;p
wait, but actually.. hmm.. there're 'men' out there, i actually know one..
umm, but lemme keep this thought to myself :)

so true..

2011-05-30T20:46:00.001+08:00

randomness

2011-05-29T20:43:00.002+08:00

either way i'm still beautiful ;p

exception

2011-05-14T18:35:00.002+08:00

i'm dying for this!

barriers

2011-05-11T16:51:00.002+08:00

i believe everybody has barriers blocking themselves with outside world, invisible barrier.
some may only have one or two. the less barrier people have the more open they are.
i think i have quite a lot barriers.
i built walls to feel safe. to not get hurt easily. even sometimes i feel lonely inside it.
there're times when i open the door to let people come inside my barrier. to let them know me, understand me.
if you know me as cool, not much words, confident person, then you're still completely outside the walls.
if you know me as a always laugh, cheerful, and confident person, you just get in to the second wall.
the third and fourth walls you can find out by knowing me more.
the fifth wall is completely locked.
yeah, overall i have five barriers. how many do you have?

a lil bit encouragement

2011-05-03T21:14:00.003+08:00

i'm losing myselftrying to compete with everyone elseinstead of just being mei don't know where to turni've been stuck in this routinei need to change my waysinstead of always being weak
i don't want to be afraidi wanna wake up feeling beautiful today and know that i'm okaycause everyones perfect in their usual ways.so seei just wanna believe in me
the mirror can liecause it can't show you what's insideand it can tell you your full of liesit's amazing what you can hidejust by putting on a smile
i'm quickly finding outi'm not about to break downnot todayi guess i always knewthat i had all the strengthto make it through
so see now i believe in me

-demi lovato's believe in me

desperate post

2011-05-03T20:38:00.003+08:00

this is me being so desperate and stress.
if you don't like to read negatives, hopeless words, don't read this.
when you're waiting on the traffic light to turn green or when you're waiting for the chance to cross the street at 5pm traffic, have you ever had the of just throwing yourself out to the road? i had that idea today.
'how if i just walk now? three steps. just three small steps.'
crazy rite? of course i didn't take that three steps, if i did, you won't see this post.
i'm so stressed! assignment due date is so close but i can't move on because i can't submit my answer! damn perdisco keeps showing error error!
i have tried three times! three times doing long questions that require at least 1 and a half hour to finish! i almost memorise the numbers now!
sigh...
well, the horrible day hasn't ended yet.
just now, i just had more horrible thought.
'should've just thrown myself to the traffic just now'
even myself can't believe this idea can pop up too..
i'm so disappoint and sad.. and i can't tell you the reason, but obviously not about uni or study, i'm not that into study that can make me regret of not being dead. hm? sounds weird. lol.
well, there's always something that you won't know from a person. everybody has a secret.
and this is my secret. i keep it to myself so i can still be myself.
i'm so tired..
well, hope your day is better than me.
and hope tomorrow can be better..

if love were enough

2011-04-30T00:40:00.005+08:00

Vezi mai multe peTeava.ro

i started watching grey's anatomy recently and only up to season 2.
this is my favorite episode so far.
i laughed and cried in this episode.
i like bonnie, the girl with metal pole cut through her body, she ended up dead here which is a shame :(
what makes me so touched is her last words to her fiance:
"that if love were enough, i'd still be here with you"

ilovequote

2011-04-29T23:11:00.003+08:00

"Time elapses too slowly for those who wait, too quickly for those who fear, it is too long for those who enjoy themselves, but for those who love time, time is eternal".
-Lady Jane (in Princess Diana's funeral)

touched

2011-04-28T21:30:00.002+08:00

i have only one word to decribe her. amazing. she is amazing!
love her so much! when will she come to perth? i'll absolutely go to her concert, even buy the vip ticket! love her voice. love this song. this is legend..wait for it..daryyy!!!! XD

a good friday :)

2011-04-22T14:34:00.002+08:00

Vezi mai multe peTeava.ro

this is so funny.. my favorite episode from how i met your mother.
the joke that barney said in 1:17 is so suitable for good friday rite? lol
enjoy the long weekend fellas!
have a good friday :)

undescribable

2011-04-22T13:42:00.003+08:00

you know, there's always a small conversation with friends that you will remember for the rest of you life, even though it's just a meaningless chit-chat and nobody remembers to have that conversation but you.
i remember my friends ever talked about what type of boys suits us the most. hahaha well, typically girls talk.
so my friends mentioned the types that they think suit each of us the most, but they stopped at me for quite long time. they can't think what type of guys suits me the most, they looked at my face and their brows curled. then, one of them, angel i believe, said she thinks my type will be the one that really really loves me, 100%, inside out.
that time, i didn't understand why they think like that and only thought that's good, who doesn't want being loved 100% right?
but now i understand. i'm a hard one.
i don't open my heart easily. i don't give my love easily. i don't care much.
i'm selfish, moody, and easily changed. the last one really is true, i change like weather.
i'm a coward, i don't like responsibility, i hate facing serious problems, hate letting people down and disappoint them so i hide the truth.
man.. i'm awful! if i'm a guy i won't fall in love with me. haha..
feel sorry for you who ever liked and like me.
this is just the way i am.

unplayed piano

2011-04-02T15:14:00.004+08:00

hey guys, have u heard of Damien Rice?
his songs are brilliant!
this is one of my favorites :)

love his cannonball too! a great song it is :D
the connoisseur of great excuse and blower's daughter are very nice as well.
oh i love acoustic ♥

don't matter

2011-03-30T22:01:00.004+08:00

my favorite tv show :)
you know what i love the most about how I met you mother? except for the funny jokes that make my days of course. i love their friendship. they share everything, help each other solve problems, make fun of each other, laugh and cry together, intervene each other's negatives (s4e04 XD).
i envy them.
well, anyway, my favorite character is ted, he's so funny and romantic! the blue horn he stole for robin, he set up the room full of candles and string quartet for robin, the two minutes date with stella. i like his 'she might be the one', his optimistic in finding his soulmate..
he is just so cutee!
can't understand robin and stella left him. ckckck.
well, just wanna share this because i'm so into himym these days.
abandon study and keep watching it, even i've ever watched it before.
know it's bad but laziness always win :(
oh, btw, hello :D long time didn't add something here haha
just busy these days, try to keep pace with uni life plus work.
okay then, long life people! cheers :)

five to go :)

2011-01-24T18:41:00.002+08:00

Hello :) today is 24th january 2011.
which means 5 days more, this time 7pm, i'll be on a plane flying from singapore to medan.
oh, just how i can't wait for that!
but the problem is i'll have a whole day in singapore since my perth-singapore flight is midnight so i'll arrive in Changi airport at 6am. sighh.
wondering what should i do in singapore :/
and another problem is i'll have final exam right before i go back and i don't have any mood to study at all. all i think now is go home go home go home :(
but still, have to study. can't afford failing.
maybe i'll hit my head to wall if i fail. won't be able to stand the guiltiness.
so... have to off now! off to watch TV. hahaha.
i know. i know. i don't suppose to watch TV, but it can't be helped. i love this drama!
i promise will study after that and whole day tomorrow. promise! X(

i♥quotes

2011-01-19T21:16:00.003+08:00

sad happy ending

2011-01-18T13:29:00.000+08:00

This is a song that i won't skip everytime my itouch plays it.
This song remains unchanged as my berry's ringtone.
This song will always be one of my favourites.

a quick 6 mins

2011-01-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

my parent is traditional and oriental type who think 17th is still too early for their daughter to have boyfriend; will always ask who their children go out with, who are the friends, and end up with 'be careful' and 'don't get home too late'; not allow their children to go clubbing; will scold you if they hear dirty word comes out from your mouth; strictly teach you to behave politely if meet seniors; see rice as a compulsory for lunch and dinner.

i just had a call with my dad, and as usual he asked me what did i have for dinner.
i hate when he asked this question especially now when my aunt is not home (which means nobody cooks; oh yeah, i'm terrible in cooking ;p) but can't lie to him so i honestly answered 'bread'. as i said before, my parent sees rice as a compulsory for lunch and dinner, so in their opinion, bread is not enough for dinner.
when i answered him, i thought he will, as usual, say 'haiyah, only bread? it won't make you full, go get something else!'
but i only heard a chuckle. a sad chuckle.

the way i am

2011-01-16T15:24:00.000+08:00

I Believe...

That just because two people argue,
It doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
It doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...
That we don't have to change friends if
We understand that friends change.

I Believe....
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.

Same goes for true love.

I Believe....
That you can do something in an instant
That will give you heartache for life..

I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time
To become the person I want to be.

I Believe...
That you should always leave loved ones with
Loving words. It may be the last time you see them..

I Believe...
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...
That we are responsible for what
We do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe....
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe...
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had
And what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe...
That it isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe...
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
But, we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...
Two people can look at the exact same
Thing and see something totally different.

I Believe....
That even when you think you have no more to give, when
A friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

'The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
They just make the most of everything.'

happy new year :)

2011-01-01T23:25:00.000+08:00

so it's 2011 already. i really hope this year will be better than 2010.
but today, the first day of 2011, i can't feel any happiness.
i'm in pain. and 80% of the pain comes from bloody mosquito's bites!!
i got like 10 mosquito bites! all of them swell like balloons and they hurt! and so itchy!
i hate mosquitoes! i hate insects! i don't even disturb them, why they have to give me such pain?! i know they have to live by sucking blood and i really don't mind let them suck my blood, it won't kill me so who cares! but why they have to make my arm, leg swell, hurt, and itchy like this?? i'm not exaggerating okay.
let me show you what have these horrible, filthy insects done to me!

can you see how big the swell? X'(

disgusting right. uhuhuhu Y.Y

and there're more than 10 bites, smaller ones, this is the biggest one.
can you tell me how i can still happy with such pain?

Ooopss!!!

2010-12-30T22:16:00.000+08:00

i can't believe how stupid i am.
i thought i have posted 98 posts here, but apparently i just posted 88!
the other 10 is just drafts! :/
ugh. so disappoint. thought that i'll end 2010 with 100 posts on my blog and start 2011 in 101 posts. but i can't post 11 more posts in a day right?
hmm, actually i can. just post any random stuffs hahaha
anyway, i just watched sisterhood of the traveling pants and i like alexis bledel so much!!
she looks like an angel to me

a perfect 10! ♥.♥
how can somebody be so beautiful??

i'm officially her fan now.
according to my definition of beauty, she is flawless, a perfection, what all women want to be. and if i'm a guy, i'll marry her.
i adore her beauty. she must be one of God's greatest creations (exaggerating ;p)

blosomming love

2010-12-30T18:45:00.000+08:00

there are so many pretty women in the world.
but beauty is not absolute, some will say that girl is pretty but some say she is not. that's normal. people have their own perspective in defining 'beauty'
but this one is a real beauty. i think no one will disagree with me :)

her name is pan chen. this is one of the songs from her first album.
she is top ten finalists from chinese singing competition called super girls.
isn't she beautiful? like her voice also! XD
got more of her pics here hehehe

♥

perfect lips ♥

love this one :D

at the beginning

2010-12-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

i love love stories.
everytime i read or watch a love novels or movies, i always wish i can be part of the story.
imagined what will i do if i'm the female main character.
when i watched movies where the male character is so kind, loves the girl so much, does everything for the girl, but the girl ignores it or loves someone else who is not as good as the male character, i always yelled at the TV how stupid the girl is.
but actually, i'm as stupid as the girl.
when i finished reading or watching love stories, i always wonder will this wonderful thing happen to me? will prince charming come to my life? will anybody sing me bruno mars' just the way you are someday? i wonder...
i know, i'm a dreamer. but nothing's wrong with that right?
dream big, then big things will happen to you :)

the song is at the beginning by Richard Marx and Donna Lewis.
this song is so beautiful. makes you dream and wish for true love :)

dadaaduduumm~~

2010-12-26T21:21:00.000+08:00

the first time go to city so early, arrive at city at 9.30 XD too excited i know haha
but even at 9.30 it's so crowded already! never saw the bus so full before and all the people are going to city -.-
walked from 8.30am(off from home to bus station) to 4.30pm. barely sit. no lunch. no food at all. i don't know how i can manage it. and the most unbelievable thing is today is my first day period. if it's usual day i'm sure i'll collapse. but you know, the spirit of the biggest stocksale has kept me from that hahahah XD
umm, i spent quite a lot today hehehe my one week salary has gone by instance XP
but it worth though. i'm happy :D what's more important than that? ;)

show you some of the stuffs i got today hehehe :D

first expensive bag i bought with my own money :)

sale sale sale sale XD

so yeah.. tired day today. and i'm broke now. officially broke :'(
but it's okay, broke can help my diet program hahaha ^^V
okay then, wanna sleep now. woke up too early today =.=
good night world :)

tempted

2010-12-24T22:10:00.000+08:00

how's the idea of me moving to melbourne next year?
i've been asked if i wanna move to melb for like 3 times since my sister will be there next year.
hmm.. some part of me want it. but another part of me don't :/
so confusing... should i? should i?
if i move, it'll absolutely be funner because i got my high school friends there and my sister and cousins will be there too. and melb must be much more interesting than perth which is so boring :p
but how about my friends here? i've got used to things here.
i don't know. no idea at all :(
i have to make decision soon. oh God, what should i do? sighh..

well, anyway, got this from secret santa from my workplace :D

thank you santa :D

oh, i'm so hungry! just had baby broccoli+apple for dinner.
need to sleep so i can forget the hungriness. haha.
have a wonderful christmas eve guys :)
night..

santa baby ♥

2010-12-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

i want this i want this i want this i want this i want this i want this i want this!

can i get this for my second christmas gift? :p

carte postale ♥

2010-12-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

bought a christmas gift for my friend just now. after hours of uncertainty and confusion, i took this-cutest pen ever- home :)

♥
and it becomes like this after the wrapping XD

i know it looks weird. i suck at wrapping thing nicely :(

also.. i bought myself a christmas gift! a clock! with Eiffel tower! fall to it at the first sight and paid for it without hesitation! :D

welcome to my room sweetie! XD

and this is my favourite christmas song three years ago, now, and maybe also in future :)

good night fellas.
hope santa is on his way.
have a merry christmas :)

the tale of reality

2010-12-18T14:53:00.000+08:00

The little mermaid by Hans Christian Anderson

The Little Mermaid lives in a utopian underwater kingdom with her father the sea king; her grandmother; and her six elder sisters, each born one year apart. When a mermaid turns 15, she is allowed to swim to the surface to watch the world above, and as the sisters become old enough, one of them visits the surface every year. As each of them returns, the Little Mermaid listens longingly to their various descriptions of the surface and of human beings.

When the Little Mermaid's turn comes, she ventures to the surface, sees a ship with a handsome prince, and falls in love with him from a distance. A great storm hits, and the Little Mermaid saves the prince from a near-drowning. She delivers him unconscious to the shore near a temple. Here she waits until a young girl from the temple finds him. The prince never sees the Little Mermaid.

The Little Mermaid asks her grandmother whether humans can live forever if they do not drown. The grandmother explains that humans have a much shorter lifespan than merfolk's 300 years, but that when mermaids die they turn to sea foam and cease to exist, while humans have an eternal soul that lives on in Heaven. The Little Mermaid, longing for the prince and an eternal soul, eventually visits the Sea Witch, who sells her a potion that gives her legs, in exchange for her tongue (as the Little Mermaid has the most intoxicating voice in the world). The Sea Witch warns, however, that once she becomes a human, she will never be able to return to the sea. Drinking the potion will make her feel as if a sword is being passed through her, yet when she recovers she will have two beautiful legs, and will be able to dance like no human has ever danced before. However, it will constantly feel like she is walking on sharp swords, and her feet will bleed most terribly. In addition, she will only get a soul if the prince loves her and marries her, for then a part of his soul will flow into her. Otherwise, at dawn on the first day after he marries another woman, the Little Mermaid will die brokenhearted and disintegrate into sea foam.

The Little Mermaid drinks the potion and meets the prince, who is attracted to her beauty and grace even though she is mute. Most of all he likes to see her dance, and she dances for him despite her excruciating pain. When the prince's father orders his son to marry the neighboring king's daughter, the prince tells the Little Mermaid he will not, because he does not love the princess. He goes on to say he can only love the young woman from the temple, who he believes rescued him, but adds that the Little Mermaid is beginning to take the temple girl's place in his heart. It turns out that the princess is the temple girl, who had been sent to the temple to be educated. The prince loves her and the wedding is announced.

The prince and princess marry, and the Little Mermaid's heart breaks. She thinks of all that she has given up and of all the pain she has suffered. She despairs, thinking of the death that awaits her, but before dawn, her sisters bring her a knife that the Sea Witch has given them in exchange for their long hair. If the Little Mermaid slays the prince with the knife and lets his blood drip on her feet, she will become a mermaid again, all her suffering will end and she will live out her full life.

The Little Mermaid cannot bring herself to kill the sleeping prince lying with his bride and, as dawn breaks, throws herself into the sea. Her body dissolves into foam, but instead of ceasing to exist, she feels the warmth of the sun; she has turned into a spirit, a daughter of the air. The other daughters of the air tell her she has become like them because she strove with all her heart to gain an eternal soul. She will earn her own soul by doing good deeds, and she will eventually rise up into the kingdom of God. (read the full version here)

sometime, things will not end like you wish. this is reality.

live happily ever after is a statement in fairytale.

random things

2010-12-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

if i'm asked to choose what kind of (...) i want to be:
- (animal) : bird
- (flower) : orchid
- (food) : smoked salmon
- (beverage): ice chocolate
- (colour) : white
- (book) : romance novel
- (disney character): donald
- (movie) : romantic comedy
- (sport) : ice skating
- (gadget) : camera
- (shoes) : flat shoes
- (song) : classic
- (country) : italy
- (element) : air
- (accessory): earrings
- (clothes) : pajama
- (furniture) : lamp
- (car) : hybrid
- (fruit) : melon
- (people) : confident and honest
- (season) : spring
- (stone) : aquamarine
- (letter) : V
- (disney princess) : belle from beauty and the beast
- (fairytale) : little mermaid

counting days

2010-12-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

how do you feel if your dream almost comes true, just few steps more, but the driver of your dream is suddenly crashed?
and the ones who crashed it are those the most important ones in your life?
confuse of what i'm talking about? haha
it's just i watched dreams link -a chinese drama-on tv this morning, the story is about triangle love of two sisters and a guy. the guy is the older sister's fiance and the older sister is a professional dancer that's on the days of her career peak. the older sister is focusing on her career so much that sometime she ignored the guy. so day by day, the guy who has closed to both sisters since childhood was closer to younger sister and the younger sister has fell in love to the guy since the beginning and hence, the guy falls to her too.
if the story ends like that, i won't pity the older sister. because it's her own fault.
however, when the guy decided to tell her fiance about the relationship of he and her sister, he's so nervous and they're in a car, so because he's so dumb and nervous, accident happened.
their car's hit by a truck. older sister lost one of her leg.
her dream, her career, gone in a flash. feeling guilty, the guy proposed to her and they got married. eitt, but the story hasn't ended yet.
the guy still loves younger sister even he has got married and the younger sister-so lucky-is loved by a rich man, so younger sister got married and moved to paris.
as i said before, the guy still loves younger sister. and when the older sister found out about the affair of her husband and her sister, which is the main root of her accident, can you imagine how hurt she is? being betrayed like that. loses her precious dream, loses her love, loses trust, loses pride.
and you know what i hate? i hate when the older sister suffers to death, the younger sister, who can be said one of the main cause of her suffer, living happy life in big villa in paris, with handsome rich guy, be the model of new perfume, etc.
well, maybe she's not really happy or whatever.. but the point is how can it be so unfair??
and i don't like the one who played the younger sister in the drama. her acting is so.. i don't know, i don't like it. i think all she did in the acting is cry cry cry and cry.
she cried even more than her older sister-i think-who suffered much more than her.

well, it's a good drama even a lil' bit boring in the middle but still worth to watch :)
my eyes are so heavy already. need to sleep now.
night world :)

cruelty

2010-12-13T22:24:00.000+08:00

Will you kill someone you love, because of love?

do you believe in faith?

2010-12-06T20:38:00.000+08:00

-Life is full of coincidences, even two parallel lines might someday meet-
-Life is also full of surprises, the kite you're flying might suddenly sail away-

those are quotes i got from a hongkong-taiwan movie turn left turn right
i love this movie to the bits. this is the best romance chinese movie i've ever watched!
Gigi Leung and Takeshi Kaneshiro's acting is so impressive :)
always love romantic movie. especially if the main characters are good looking :p
and i love the song too. encounter by sun yan zi :)

choices

2010-11-23T21:09:00.000+08:00

just watched The Devil Wears Prada and love it to the bits!

love the casts, Meryl Streep and Anna Hathaway look fabulous there.
especially Meryl Streep, she is the best! her act is flawless!
she stared in julie&julia also and she played an absolutely different character with in devil wears prada and she completely has become two different person!
if it's not because of her beauty, i can't recognise her at all.
i'm not exaggerating okay. there're some actors/actresses that act good too but Meryl Streep is different! she is so charismatic and ah i just can't describe her with words.
i admire her :)
and what i really love is the meaning of this movie.
at first, Andrea (Anna Hathaway) always said that she doesn't have a choice
but in the end, she realised that she always has choices.
and she chose to become a journalist-which is her dream, stay with her boyfriend and leave all the glamourous lifestyle, all the free top designer clothes, bags, shoes and hot metro-sexual guy behind.
i like her decision.
and wondering if i can do that if i'm in her position, but i know i can't ;p
Miranda (Meryl Streep) has said a statement that i very agree with:
"everybody wants to be us"
come on, don't be hypocrite, who doesn't want to be famous, rich, wear branded clothes from top to toe?
but the thing i reckon is, some time it has to stop.
that kind of life is good when you're young.
but when you're old, peace and simple life is the best, don't you think so? well, i do :)
that's why i don't like what Miranda did to keep her job, she is old enough, she should retire and give chances to younger people. poor Nigel :( has to suffer because of her selfishness.

can you believe this gorgeous lady is born in 1949?? because i can't.

love Anna Hathaway's skin tone ♥

Andrea and her boyfriend :) live happily ever after ♥
like him, he is so hot XP he has all an artist look, imo, an italiano artist hihi

well then guys, gonna back to my miserable marketing assignment now.
don't know what should i do for the design :(
okay then. ciao.

jokes :D

2010-11-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

Not So Dumb Blonde

A blonde and a lawyer are seated next to each other on a flight from Los Angeles to New York.

The lawyer asks if she would like to play a fun game. The blonde, tired, just wants to take a nap, so she politely declines and rolls over to the window to catch a few winks. The lawyer
persists and explains that the game is easy and a lot of fun.

He says, "I ask you a question, and if you don't know the answer, you pay me five dollars, and vice versa."

Again, she declines and tries to get some sleep.

The lawyer, now agitated, says, "Okay, if you don't know the answer, you pay me $5, and if I don't know the answer, I will pay you $500."

This catches the blonde's attention and, figuring there will be no end to this torment, agrees to the game.

The lawyer asks the first question: "What's the distance from the earth to the moon?"

The blonde doesn't say a word, reaches into her purse, pulls out a $5.00 bill, and hands it to the lawyer.

"Okay," says the lawyer, "your turn."

She asks, "What goes up a hill with three legs and comes down with four legs?"

The lawyer, puzzled, takes out his laptop computer and searches all his references ... no answer. He taps into the air phone with his modem and searches the Internet and the Library of Congress ... no answer. Frustrated, he sends e-mails to all his friends and coworkers but to no avail.

After an hour, he wakes the blonde and hands her $500.

The blonde thanks him and turns back to get some more sleep.

The lawyer, who is more than a little miffed, stirs the blonde and asks, "Well, what's the answer?"

Without a word, the blonde reaches into her purse, hands the lawyer $5, and goes back to sleep.

Marriage Part IV

A man has six children and is very proud of his achievement.

He is so proud of himself, that he starts calling his wife," Mother of Six" in spite of her objections.

One night, they go to a party. The man decides that it's time to go home and wants to find out if his wife is ready to leave as well. He shouts at the top of his voice, "Shall we go home 'Mother of six?"

His wife, irritated by her husband's lack of discretion shouts right back, "Anytime you're ready, Father of Four."

it took me a while to understand what means in the marriage part IV hahaha
this is the site where i got these jokes, there're still many more funny ones.
like 9 things i hate, dinner with girlfriend's parents, and valentine's day.

enjoy :)

giving up

2010-11-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

AUD109,380.
IDR1,000,827,000.
living and other costs haven't included.
that's the amount of money i need if i want to make my dream comes true.
it can bought a luxury mansion already :(
can i be so selfish to demand such amount of money to my parent?
can i pay back later if i get the money?
actually i still don't know if i can do it.
need a lot of tests, work and time to really become what i want.
so confusing :(

well, anyway, i don't know there's a brilliant singer in Malaysia!
her name is yuna and she has amazing voice :D
this is my fav song from her album, decorate.
it's too short! but still love it hehhe

love ♥

2010-11-10T01:23:00.000+08:00

i'm so happy and touched. just watch two great movies and i'm so into it!
i think i'll get sweet dream tonight XD

the first movie i watched is when in rome, it makes me kept saying 'aawww...' because it's just so sweet! and unpredictable! when john duhamel, in the movie his name is nicholas (-.-'), said 'why do you keep giving me my poker chip?' i was so excited!
i never imagine that the poker chip is not his and he never under spell and that he is madly, truly in love with beth since the beginning! just how sweet it is!
and john duhamel has completely melted my heart. he is so damn good-looking! XD

the second movie i watched is letter to juliet. i love this movie so much!
i personally think it's better than when in rome. it's just so touching and ah i don't know how to describe with words how good it is! if you haven't watched it, go buy the dvd right now and watch it whenever you have time. it's really worth watching!
and i love amanda seyfried, she is so beautiful :) the first time i saw her was in jennifer's body movie where megan fox is the co-star. and i think she is much more beautiful than megan fox. well, not hotter than megan fox, but beautiful. sure you know what i mean :)
the male main character in letter to juliet, at first, i don't like him. but in the end, i think he is so cute, and i love his british accent :D
letter to juliet is really like a fairy tale. it's just hard to believe that this will happen in real life, isn't it?
find the true love after 50 years and in the way of helping her finds it, she finds it too.
just how wonderful it is, happiness inside happiness :)
when i watched this movie, what can come out from my lips is 'oh my God..'
because the story is so beautiful, i even cried when Claire finally finds Lorenzo and when Sophie gets the wedding invitation. oh, i know i'm such a crybaby but i'm just so touched!
and this is the letter from secretary of juliet-sophie-to claire :

"'What' and ‘if’ two words as nonthreatening
as words come. But put
them together side-by-side and they
have the power to haunt you for the
rest of your life: ‘What if?'..."

"I don't know how your story ended.
But I know that if what you felt
then was love - true love - then
it's never too late. If it was true
then it why wouldn't it be true
now? You need only the courage to
follow your heart..."

"I don't know what a love like that
feels like... a love to leave loved
ones for, a love to cross oceans
for... but I'd like to believe if I
ever felt it. I'd have the courage
to seize it. I hope you had the
courage to seize it, Claire. And if
you didn't, I hope one day that you
will."

♥

can you see how beautiful this words are?

well, at last, love stories still got ending and now i have to go back to reality and sleep bcos tomorrow i have to work at 10 and now it's 2am already =.=
and i have to stop this love story song by taylor swift now since i keep repeating it and i type this post with only this song played. so now i'm getting a lil' bit dizzy by it.
okay then, ciao :)

p.s.: both movies above's setting are in italy. so italy is in my top list of destinations i will head soon (hopefully). for the sake of true love. ;p

faith :)

2010-11-09T19:42:00.000+08:00

this is so funny and interesting even i don't understand some of them XD
i like no 2, 10, 13, 16, 17, 22, 23, 25, and 32, especially no 17! i laughed so loud when i read it XD
16 and 27 are so funny too hahahha..
but i don't understand no 1 and 19, why clear computer history if die? who is Kay Jewellers and Miller Lite? just don't get it :(

anyway, i have found my dream on sunday night, when i laid on my bed, feeling hopeless, depressed, tired, and lonely, thinking why don't i just die if living is so torturing :)
but i don't know why and how, suddenly i found what i wanna do in this world. and i feel like i was born to this! hahaha it's like God has pointed me a way, when i was hugging my foot and tears were streaming down my knees in the corner of darkness, suddenly God stretched out His hand and guided me through the pain and sorrow :p
hahaha i'm exaggerating things. my condition was not that bad.
so yeah, i have found my dream! that's the point :D
i won't tell anybody about what it is yet. still gathering courage to get out of my safe place.
i'm still like 'should i do it? should i really do it? how if...'
yeah, so just wish me luck okay :)

quote of the day:
All dreams can come true if we have courage to pursue it. -Walt Disney
;)

oh, one last thing, today, 9th november, is my mom's birthday :D
hope her healthy forever and long live! all the best for her of course!
there're two persons i love the most in this world, mom and dad ♥
nobody can compare with them :)

my beautiful mom ♥ :)

Happy birthday mommy! Love you! :D

hope so :')

2010-11-05T21:44:00.001+08:00

grumbling

2010-11-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

work, do homework, work, do homework, why my daily routine always has 'work' word!
i wanna hang out with my besties, ah, i don't have any besties here in perth :(
what a terrible fact :(
i really miss home.
2010 please ends faster. i want home.
i want warm hugs.
i want mom's soft caress. i want dad's funny jokes.
i want grandma's cook. i miss my grandma. i miss scratching her back with coin and some hot creams. i want talking nonsense, taking endless narciss pics with my besties. i want bugging my sis.
mommy.. i want home.. uhuhuhuhu.. D'X
i don't want work. i don't want study.
screw independent. screw mature.
i want spoiling with mom and dad.
i am homesick. again.
and i'm missing you. again.

au revoir, Octobre

2010-10-31T23:53:00.000+08:00

October, the month of disaster for Indonesia.
Tsunami, earthquake, flood, volcano eruption, just what more will happen??
why did all these happen to Indonesia? is this karma?
is God angry with Indonesia? do Indonesian have a lot of sins?
if so, we, Indonesian, really beg for forgiveness.
hope with the end of october, the disaster will end too.
and tomorrow, will be the time for rebuild :)

anyway, just watched Legend of the fist: the return of Chen Zhen, the main characters are Donnie Yan and Su Qi.
the story is almost like ipman, with japanese as the villain and donnie yan as the hero.
but it's still good to watch, with all the action and kungfu :)
from this movie, you can see how cruel is japanese back then in world war 2
China really likes to make movies of how cruel japanese are. i wonder how are the japanese's feeling when they watch the movies. hahaha.
but that is not fiction tho, it's real. japanese are that cruel.
my mom told me that older chinese are still hate japanese to the bones, and i can see it in my chinese teacher who i think is about 40 to 50 years old.
he said japanese are so evil. 100 times more evil than white people.
he said if the enemies have surrendered, white people won't kill them, and they didn't kill people without reason like japs did. the worse is japs tortured people before killed them and they didn't care if you surrender or not.
i think that's the cruelest part, i mean, everybody will die, i know,
but torture before kill, i reckon, is so inhumanity. and those who can still laugh seeing other people howl in pain are worse than beasts.
hm? why am i suddenly so inflamed? -.-
but i believe not all japs are like that tho, and it's different now with era ago.
one of my good friends now is japanese too and she is pretty good. so it's just unfair to judge people by other people's sins just because they're from same country or race.
well, time to off to bed. see you tomorrow november :)
ah, here's the trailer of the return of Chen Zhen.
and one last thing, quote of the day taken from Chen Zhen:
people will die anyway, but for the least they have to die with dignity

here to stay

2010-10-20T22:06:00.000+08:00

have u realised the song i added to my blog? :D
it's bleach theme song! told u i'm so into bleach lately hihii
i love the melody. sadness and loneliness in the beginning, but i feel hope at last, imagining somebody's hand is held out for me to reach. so i can get out from the loneliness :)
my imagination is so lame i know hahaha.. i suppose to stand and get out of it alone! like what an aquarius supposed to do, being independent! >:D
but i think i am a lot more independent and mature than i was when i was still in school.
remembering myself when i was in primary and junior high school really make me shake my head hahaha
i was so childish, selfish, spoiled, bad, and annoying -.-
for instance, when i was in year 8th or 9th of high school, i liked to watch anime like mirumo de pon and inuyasha that's on tv at 4pm to 5pm. but you know, indonesia often makes houses off electricity or blackout :/ so i remember that time, the channel said that day was the last episode of inuyasha, and guess what, that day, that hour, blackout! i was so pissed that time!
so i bothered my parents badly but forgot what really happened already. what i remember is i cried!
can you believe it?? just because of inuyasha i cried! hahaha.. XD
i can't believe myself either. just how childish i was back there -.-'
and i don't know how my mom and dad can be so patient facing all my childish and selfishness. if i have a kid like myself, i'll lose patient and just ignore her, or even scold her hahaha XD i hate childish kid. hm? that sentence is weird, kids are supposed to be childish.
it's like when my sisters said that i'm so childish and my mom said 'of course she is childish, she is a child' hahahaha..
what a pointless things to write -.-'
i'm just getting bored. have finished watching bleach :(
aahh.. holiday is gonna over soon! so lazy to go back to assignments and tests.
and still haven't decided what should i major in yet :(
now, lenka's the show is the best to illustrate my life.

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried and I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down

♥

good songs make my day :)

2010-10-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

i'm so into these songs lately:
1. raise your glass by pink. this's her newest single and it rocks! always heart pink ♥
2. the only exception by paramore. totally fall in love with this song! the lyric is so beautiful, a girl who has lost hope and trust for love, finally find her only exception :) just how sweet that is.. it's like finally find a glimpse of light in never ending misery.. wondering when will i find my exception..
3. sandford in the club by mister hopper. this song is so fun, the rhythm is so catchy. like it ♥ i know this song from unhearit.com. it's really interesting website. just open it and you'll like it!

those're the songs that make my day hehee keep repeating them :D

anyway, i really salute this lady. she really gets gut!cool rite? two thumbs up for her!

i'll never have the guts to have hairstyle like this! i'm too old-fashioned, and i can't imagine how my grandma, mom and dad will react if they see me with this hairstyle hahahaha
i think they will kick me out of house XD

well, need to sleep now. need to get rid of my annoying eyebags hehee
last but not least, this is my quote of the day:

'as time goes by, people will forget what you said and what you did to them. but they will never forget the feeling you made them felt'

nighty night people! aware more of people's feeling okay? :)

fact ;)

2010-10-11T17:58:00.000+08:00

When a diplomat says yes, he means ‘perhaps’;

When he says perhaps, he means ‘no’;

When he says no, he is not a diplomat.

When a lady says no, she means ‘perhaps’;

When she says perhaps, she means ‘yes’;

When she says yes, she is not a lady.

Voltaire (Quoted, in Spanish, in Escandell 1993.)

encouragement ♥

2010-10-08T21:53:00.000+08:00

Girls are like
apples on trees. The best
ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for
the good ones because they are afraid
of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they
just get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples
at the top think something is wrong with
them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right
boy to come along, the one
who's brave enough
to climb
all the way
to the top
of the tree.

left, right or go straight?

2010-10-08T16:58:00.000+08:00

i'm so confuse now. thinking what should i major in really make me sick.
when people ask "what do u want to be when you finish school?" i really hope i can answer with my 10-years-old's answer "i haven't figured it out. it's still in God's hand"
but i can't answer people with that kind of answer anymore, can i?
i'm 18th, in college, will go to uni next year, and have to decide what majors i have to take before wednesday the 13th. why? simply because i need to enrol the elective subject that relates to what i wanna major in next year in uni.
so the problem is i really don't know what i want!
since the beginning i chose commerce also because i don't know what to do, i'm so hopeless!
it's like choosing a way that i don't know where it will lead me to, and don't know which way is the right one. damn.
somehow i wish i'll just get married and become housewife. hahaha.
like anybody wants me to become his wife =.='
and actually i'm too stubborn, too independent to rely on men
anyway, love, relationship, really aren't type of things i wanna think about right now, so stop talking about married already :p

i'm so busy lately, busy watching bleach anime XD
i like it. it's a perfect thing to do to kill time :)
ah, and i just had a haircut. and i regret to have cut my hair T.T
because i look so stupid and ugly now! my hair is supposed to look like katy perry! but it turns out not even slightly look like her! and the hairdresser said that's because my hair is too straight and bla bla bla! whatta bullshit! X(
well, actually i know it won't turn exactly like katy perry though. since katy perry's hair was cut by top hairdresser in hollywood and mine was cut by a i-don't-even-know-her-name hairdresser and only cost me 25 bucks -.-
so yeah, i have to stop complain now :/
hoamm.. so sleepy =.=
it's almost two already?? no wonder!
okay then, need to sleep now. bonsoir people :)
avoir un doux reve ♥

ah, here some pics of my hair before cut-i wish to have-and after cut

T.T

Ola October ♥

2010-10-02T02:07:00.000+08:00

time sure goes fast, october has stepped in to replace september
hopefully, february will come faster :)
and hopefully october can be better since my september was not really nice :(
many things change, many lies revealed, tears were drawn, heart hurts
but i'm sure this will really be the end, 30th page has been torn and
here comes the 1st page, the beginning of new chapter :)
and in this new chapter of my heart, my life, here are the top 3 priority:
1. family
2. friends
3. study

wondering where is love? i think it's at the fourth place, or maybe fifth
i don't know, don't wanna think about it

anyway, yesterday was my last day exam, don't think i did well though :(
but the point is i'm in holidayyy!! yaayyy!! :D
i feel so free after the exam finished, if i'm a bird i think i have flown up to the blue sky, carefreely :)
i know this holiday gonna be boring, but it's better than stressing about assignments right?

and i have song to share with u guys :D
this is my favorite song at the moment ♥
my music by kim yeo hee, she is know as the 'apple girl' because her youtube videos always have iphone in it. i love her high and strong voice so much!
she is just like alicia keys, but korean version XD
and she is so pretty! good looking and talented, can't be better :)
okay then, off now, gonna have some lunch, so hungry because i skip the breakfast
have a great weekend guys! enjoy the video :)

element of freedom

2010-09-17T12:30:00.000+08:00

and the day came
when the risk it took
to remain tight and closed in the bud
was more painful
than the risk it took to bloom.

this is the element of freedom

-Alicia Keys

always ♥ alicia keys~

disappointed :(

2010-09-10T21:32:00.000+08:00

i'm so disappointed at myself :(

think i've done good but actually i'm not.
just now, my kfc friend told me that she got high distinction in all subjects when she was in CIC just like by snapping fingers. she said college is way easier than uni.
i hate myself to have thought that i'm doing great already.
well, i can't be like her because i only got credit pass for my CIB, but i'll try to get the rest subjects HD. 5 subjects more. hope i can do it.

but i'm so lazy lately, only two weeks left 'till final exam and i haven't studied anything yet :(
and i'm getting fatter too, which means uglier.
aaahhh!! i know i have to do something rather than complaining!
okay! i'll off to study now!
all the best for me. and you too :)

ah, by the way, i just find out one reason to stay in perth forever which purely comes from me, not like other reasons which because of somebody else.
the reason is simply the night sky here. the stars. the moon.
and my wish is someday i can sleep on the grass with my lover, watching the starry night, chatting, joking, hugging. that will be the best :)

anywayyy.. here're some silly pics of my lovely lil' cousin XD

yeah, he's wearing my cloth. lol. i asked him to wear it when i was tidying my closet. and he really wore it. he is just so lovable! :D

well, it'll be not fair if i only upload his silly pics, so i upload mine too :p

don't ask what i'm doing. because i don't know too hahaa

i know i look so stupid and ugly here, but sometime it's alright showing others our ugly side :p
well, need to study for HD. i'm not as smart as she who can get it just by snapping fingers.
okay then. bonsoir people.
have a nice weekend :)

aftershock

2010-09-06T21:18:00.000+08:00

yuhuu.. it's really been ages since the last time i watched movie
and yesterday i just watched aftershock. a really good movie.
the story is about the life of a family after the earthquake in tang shan (a city in china) in 1976 if i'm not mistaken.
this earthquake has forced a mother to choose between her daughter or son's life :(
because the rescue team only can save one at the time. this is a sad story.
and i admit i cried when i watched this. you just can't believe how big is a mother's love.
well, the effect is not as good as hollywood's one but it's really worth watching! trust me!
here's the trailer. this is really a must watch movie guys. you'll value your life more after watch this :)

liar+loser=lesbian

2010-09-03T21:46:00.000+08:00

two types of men that i hate the most: liars and losers
men that lie just to save their face or what-they-say pride, are suck.
well, no offense, but i think you guys are cowards, why don't you just admit what you've done??
if you think that women will like your lies, you're totally wrong!
well, maybe some women-like rihanna maybe-like it, regarding her single love the way you lie -.- but seriously men, most of women hate it!
so wake up! you don't look cool when you lie, you look like cowards!
for me, man looks cool when he admits what he has done either right or wrong, and if it's wrong, tries to fix it, not by saying 'ah, that's not my fault!' that's so gay men!
what i mean by loser here is like men that can't stand by their own feet and keep relying on their parents.
c'mon, your parents want to rely on you someday, you can't rely on them forever, so grow up! be a man!
and also, those men who point on women when the question 'who will do this?' being asked, i think is so gay! well, i know nowadays people don't difference between man and woman, and i don't like to be discriminated because of gender too. but, you know, i still want to rely on man okay! since when does the world change to men relies on women?? :(
well, this one is dedicated to somebody i know. hope he reads my blog :p
how if the man is a liar and loser too? well, i'd rather become a lesbian than marry him
i think most women will be like me, so if there're many losers and liars out there, the amount of lesbian women will increase. hahahaha.
so guys, if you're a loser or a liar or maybe both of them, please CHANGE!
believe me.
please don't be offended. i'm not being mean or rude or whatever.
i can't difference between mean and rude you know? hahaha i think they both have same meaning :p

well, that's it.
i want to post this since i know a liar+loser man, but keep forgetting :p
ciao guys :)

hell hasn't over yet

2010-09-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

my first post for september!
it's quite awhile since the last time i update my blog eh
just busy these days, you know, classic reason, assignments :(
anyway, the assignment period has over, all assignments are done :D
and i've got most of the results and kinda satisfied with them :)
but hell has not over yet, still have final exam waiting at the end of this month :(
i suck at final exam! mainly because there's time limit in exam!
2 hours to write 2 essays or things like that, and i can't finish it!
told you i'm a slow person :(
hope i can do well this time though, because i screwed in CIB exam last time :'(
well, after all the assignments finish, me and yuka, my best group member from management assignment went out and had shopping :D
and i bought this!

i want this hat for like weeks ago, and now i finally bought it! :D

tee-hee ^^ gonna wear it tomorrow..
okay then, gonna off now..
bonsoir people :)
have a nice weekend!

♥ honeymoon destination ♥

2010-08-18T21:41:00.000+08:00

this paradise is somewhere in Indian ocean, called cocoa island, even the name is so cute XD

♥.♥

the houses are actually boats you know, the people who designed this is so creative! 4 thumbs up for him/her ♥

and this is inside the boat house. so nice~

♥♥♥♥

amazing rite?

i promise myself have to visit here in the future!
wait me cocoa island! i'll come to you as soon as possible :D

happy monday : )

2010-08-17T14:41:00.000+08:00

i am happy today.
it's really been a while since the last time i felt so happy.
i laughed but that doesn't mean i'm happy.
but today, i've found out what can make me really happy. it is-just like other girls-shopping :D
buy things that i like, without feeling so guilty because i spent my own money, you know, my wage from working in KFC, really feel GREAT.
especially because it's been ages since the last time i went to city for shopping, so the feeling is double, no, triple better than usual.
do you know that i'm too happy that even when i was in the bus headed home i still can't stop smiling?
i think people might have thought i'm crazy. hahaha.
and guess what, because i'm so happy, stupid and careless, i embarrassed myself right away :(
what happen was when the bus stopped at the bus-stop near my house, and i wanted to get off, i supposed to tag off my smart rider card first rite? but you know what, i can't find my smart rider!! i kept looking inside my bag but can't find it! the bus was halted for like 4-5 minutes because of me and everybody was looking at me with what-a-stupid-girl look! oh my God! i'm really really embarrassed. so i asked the bus driver to just drive the bus again because i still can't find my card. hiks. however, after the bus moved again for just like a minute, i found my card!
that stupid retarded card was in my bag somewhere! i don't know how i can't find it before!
so the very kind bus driver somehow knew that i found my card already, and he stopped the bus just to let me get off, even there's no bus-stop there :D well i ignored the part that he stopped at the ground that full of sand which means lot of sand in my shoes hahaa
the bus driver is so kind. hope God bless him :)
so just like that. the story of my day today hehehe
anyway, even i embarrassed myself badly, i still feel so happy when i got home and still can't stop smiling. can you believe how strong is the power of shopping? hahaha
here is one of the things i bought today :)

floral scarf. my cousin said it's like old ladies' -.-

ah, and this is just a funny pic of me hehehe

it looks like i'm drunk rite? i never get drunk, but i know how i'll look like when i'm drunk already XD don't know why i upload this, just feel like it :p

actually i feel a lil' bit afraid, for being too happy, let me keep wondering will bad things happen soon? :(
well then, i think this is it for today.
good luck everybody.
good luck for my assignments too. hope i can get good marks :)
ciao.

wind and tree

2010-08-13T20:12:00.000+08:00

which one do you wanna be?
tree? or wind?hahahaha a very weird question, isn't it?
i think about it when i worked and walked home just now
and it's really hard for me to choose!
i wanna be wind, wind is full of freedom, independent and can go all around the world.
but tree is so beautiful, calm, strong and down to earth.
when wind gets angry, it will blow everything that comes in its way, but when it is happy, it will help plants pollination and caress the world. and i love when wind caress my face so much.
tree is so calm that almost can't get angry even people keep cutting it :(
most of their life are spent in helping others. produce oxygen for living beings, provide home for little animals, feed them with its fruit and leaves, and so many other things that trees contribute for other living beings!i wanna be wind so i can explore the world.
i wanna be wind so i can caress those people who love my caress and see smile on their face.
but i wanna be tree too. being so helpful to others like that. being so wise, so beautiful.
sighh. what a hard choice. hahahaa
well, i still can't make a decision of which one i wanna be the most.
do you know what you wanna be already? :)

wind?

or tree?

i love both of the pictures above. so beautiful.

told you i'm a weirdo. hahaha. :p

what a mom wanna say

2010-08-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

here's my favorite page from naruto so far :)
this is when kushina and minato died because of the kyubi attacked :(
and these words are kushina last words, quite many for last words hahaha
but words are never enough for a mom to describe her love to her children, rite?

can you read it? i don't know why it's so blur here. hmm.
okay, i'll type what she said here, just in case you can't read it :) :
"don't be a picky eater.. eat heartily.. so you grow big and strong.. take a bath everyday.. and keep warm.. don't stay up late.. get enough sleep.. and make friends.. you don't need a lot.. but just a few true friends you can really trust.. and i was never good at it myself.. but study hard and practice your ninjutsu.. but everyone has things they're good at and things they're not.. so if you have a hard time.. don't let it get you down.. respect your senseis and senpais at the academy.. oh.. and one more important thing.. about the three ninja vices.. be especially careful.. when lending or borrowing money.. and save the money you earn from missions.. and don't drink until you're 20.. and drinking too much is bad for you.. so take it easy.. and as for women.. i'm a women so i don't really understand.. but anyway.. there are only man and woman.. so you'll find yourself interested in women.. but just don't fall for a strange one.. find a woman like your mom..!"

i think these words are what all moms wanna say if they're going to be apart with their children.
and my mom did say most of them everytime we're on the phone :)
aah, just how i miss my mom :'(
wanna be hugged by her so badly..

being slow and stupid

2010-07-26T15:38:00.000+08:00

i'm so stupid you know??
i thought both of my econs and management assignments due to next week, so i was so stress.
but this morning, when my econs lecturer said "next week you have mid-semester test and week 6 (which is next two weeks) is your assignment due." when i heard it, i was like REALLY?? -.-'
i know i should have looked at the date carefully. my bad.
but it's good though, i started my assignment early, i don't like to rush anyway.
that's me being stupid. and i just realize that i'm a slow person too!
few days ago, my cousins said i'm so slow. at that time, i still haven't realized that i am slow, so i didn't admit it and argued with him hhaha, actually, it isn't slow you know, it's just i'm too lazy! i can be fast if the situation and condition make me.
but if it's just common condition, i'm too lazy to think fast, speak fast, walk fast, or do anything fast.
so i end up doing everything slowly -.-
that's why i don't really like my KFC job, because it requires fast service rite? and i'm too lazy to be fast. i know it's not good, but you know, it's not easy to change.
ah! i got my internet access back already! yihaaa! XD
i thought it has overlimit, but actually it's not. it's just 'almost' overlimit :D
so i can do my assignment research at home now, no need to go to cic anymore XD
thank God :)
btw, i wanna share some trees branches pictures i took with u hahha

don't you think they're cool? don't you think i'm quite good in taking nature pictures hahaha :p
you know what, i think i'm a lil' weird, because when i'm walking, i can suddenly stop and look at the wild flowers, blue sky, and trees. and seeing how beautiful they are, make me happy and forget if i was having a bad day. i'm just like old people i think. enjoy things easily. but i know it's not a bad thing. maybe people will think i'm weird when i took a picture of sky, but i don't care :p no one knows me here hahaa
well, have to off now.
see ya guys :)
have a nice week!

unlucky me

2010-07-22T14:42:00.000+08:00

hey, how are u guys? fine? great? can't be better? good then :)

me? i'm bad. really bad. why?

i have two assignments due to 2nd august, and i haven't started researching yet.

i have less than two weeks, it supposed to be a long time. yeah. if the internet access in my house works, i won't be so stress.

yeah. the internet access in my house has overlimit AGAIN. i didn't even download anything or watch youtube! and now, here i am, typing in cic computer lab. i come to curtin even i don't have class today. it's so unfair! i'm really pissed off.

and that's not the end of my unluckiness, my kfc manager called me yesterday and said he'll add my work time next week.

i know i supposed to say no. but i can't. i don't know why, i just can't. sighh.

so the only way out is study and work on my assignment if i get free time. sounds so good huh? haha

ah, and i have this academic peer thing too, i'm pretty interested in it, even it'll make me busier.

will explain what is this academic peer program in my next post, after i get my internet access back, which is next month! my God. :(

and don't mention my chinese school starts this week and i haven't done my essay homework yet. well, don't think i'll do it though, since i'm so busy :p

okay then guys, have to start the research for my assignments now.

see ya!

factors of asianism

2010-07-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

This is so interesting!
all is damn true!
check it out, you'll laugh XD

You know you are CHINESE if...
1. You think you're the smartest people in the world.
2. You have a mobile with you at all times.
3. You know the abbreviation of a.b.c.
4. Today's steamed rice is tomorrow's fried rice.
5. You're afraid of black people.
6. A bicycle was a good form of transport before.
7. You know you are superior to all other Asians.

You know you are HONGKIE if...
1. Sentences begin with 'Aiya?' and ends with 'la?'
2. Your mobile phone as a form of toy dangling off it.
3. You're offended if someone thinks your from the mainland.
4. You're afraid of black people.
5. You're moving away from your Honda onto Vw's and Peugeot's.
6. Ripped jeans on guys look attractive (either way).
7. You think you are on the same level to Japanese.

You know you are VIETNAMESE if...
1. You MUST have fish sauce with every meal.
2. You eat at a restaurant that has 'Pho?' on the signage.
3. Guys wear green mircofibre pants with Nike sneakers, and girls wear their flared black pants over their high sole shoes.
4. You know the abbreviation of f.o.b.
5. You have some relative who is Chinese.
6. Cabramatta makes you feel home sick.
7. You're afraid of black people.
8. You're fond of 2nd hand Japanese import cars.
9. You know you are superior to all other Asians.

You know you are Philippino if...
1. You want to be a dancer, a singer, or an actor, even though you have a day job as a nurse, an engineer or an accountant.
2. A member of your family back home is a politician or a movie star or knows one.
3. Guys with jeans and white sneakers anyone?
4. You're always late for any engagement, and practice the art of Philo time?
5. You're not afraid of black people. In fact, you wish you were black.
6. You love your Toyota's and Honda's.
7. You don't care if you are superior to all other Asians or not, because being Philipino is just cool in itself.

You know you are JAPANESE if...
1. You're obsessed with you hair, your car and your clothes.
2. You want to marry a Korean American or Chinese American woman (for males) or you want to marry a white guy (for females).
3. You're afraid of black people.
4. You only drive Japanese cars.
5. You know you are superior to all other Asians.

You know you are KOREAN if...
1. You smoke and drink too much.
2. You wear pink Polo collar shirts, have loose beige pants, and have blonde highlights in your hair.
3. You know what a Dalki, Pucca or Mashimoro is?
4. You're afraid of black people.
5. You drive a Hyundai even though you won't admit it.
6. You know you are superior to all other Asians.

You know you are ASIAN AUSTRALIAN if...
1. You regret the fact that you did not learn Mandarin or other Asian language properly in Saturday language school.
2. You say you're Australian, totally forgetting your roots.
3. During childhood you didn't have much Asian friends, played bullrush or handball and ate 'sunny boys' for lunch.
4. A form of choosing was done by 'dip.dip dog shit?!'
5. You know you have to shop at an Asian grocery store but you have no idea what you are buying nor can you read any of the food labels.
6. You cheer for Australia during the Olympics, know local Australian bands, and know what a Vb is.
7. You can speak fluent English without an accent.
8. Know what a Commodore and Falcon are. Yes..... they are cars!
9. You know you are superior to all other Asians, despite the fact that they beat you in Maths in the VCE, can speak an Asian language fluently and know what they are buying in Asian grocery stores.

Top Ten Reasons Why There Won't Be An Asian President Anytime Soon (XD LMAO)

10. White House not big enough for in-laws
9. Engineering, medicine, and law always preferred over politics
8. Oval Office has bad feng shui.
7. Can't find decent roast duck inside the beltway.
6. Secret service can't handle nagging from mother.
5. Dignitaries are generally intimidated by chopsticks at state dinners.
4. No chance for promotion.
3. Lactose intolerance not considered politically correct.
2. Senior aides won't take off shoes before coming in.
1. Air Force One: No frequent flyer miles.

How To Be The Perfect Asian Australian Parent
( From the second generation perspective)

1. Be a little more lenient on the 7:00 p.m. curfew.
2. Don't ask where the other point went when your child comes home with grade on his/her report card.
3. Don't 'ai-yah' loudly at your kid's dress habits.
4. Don't blatantly hint about the merits of Habad (Harvard), Yeil(Yale), Purinsiton ( Princeton ),
or Stamfud (Stanford).
5. Don't reveal all the intimate details of your kid's life to the entire Asian community.
6. Don't ask your child, 'What are you going to do with your life?' if he/she majors in a non-science field.
7. Don't give your son a bowl haircut or your daughter two acres of bangs.
8. Don't try to set your kid up on a date in anticipation of their poor taste or inept social skills.
9. Incorporate other phrases besides, 'Did you study yet?' or 'When are you getting married?' into your daily conversations with your children.
10. Don't ask all your kid's friends over the age of 21 if they have a boy/girl friend yet.

50 Ways To Know If You're An 'ASIAN'
(The NEW List From the 1st to 1.5 Generation Perspective)

1. You were/are a good student with very high GPAs.
2. You majored in something practical like engineering, medicine or finance.
3. You have more than one-college degree, especially more than one Master's.
4. If you play a musical instrument, it must be piano.
5. You have a vinyl table cloth on your kitchen table.
6. Your stove is covered with aluminum foil.
7. Your kitchen has a sticky film of grease over it.
8. You beat eggs with chopsticks.
9. You always leave outdoor shoes at the door.
10. You use the dishwasher as a dish rack.
11. You keep a Thermos of hot water available at all times.
12. You boil water before drinking.
13. You eat all meals in the kitchen to keep your dining room clean.
14. You don't use measuring cups when preparing foods.
15. You save grocery bags and use them to hold garbage.
16. You have a rice cooker.
17. You're a wok user.
18. You fight over who pays the dinner bill.
19. You wash rice 2-3 times before cooking it.
20. You make sounds when you have a bowl of soup.
21. You don't dry-clean clothes, even if they need to be dry-cleaned.
22. You iron your own shirts.
23. You like congee with thousand year old eggs.
24. You always cook yourself, even if you hate it.
25. You use credit cards, and pay monthly bills in full.
26. You do either soccer, swimming, badminton, volleyball, basketball, or ping pong, and have an obsession with making the Beijing Olympics.
27. You buy Christmas cards after Christmas, when they are 50% off.
28. When you hand wash dishes, you only use cold water.
29. You hate to waste food:
a) Even if you're totally full, if someone says they're going to throw away the leftovers on the table, you'll finish them.
b) You have Tupperware in your fridge with three bites of rice or one leftover chicken wing.
30. You don't own any real Tupperware-only a cupboard full of used but carefully rinsed margarine tubs, takeout containers, and jam jars.
32. When toilet paper is on sale, you buy 100 rolls and store them.
33. You have a collection of miniature shampoo/conditioner bottles and little soap bars that you take every time you stay in a hotel.
34. The condiments in your fridge are either Price Club sized or come in plastic packets, which you save every time you get take out or go to McDonald's.
35. You carry a stash of your own food whenever you travel (and travel means any car ride longer than 15 minutes).
36. You spit bones and other food scraps on the table.
37. Your dad thinks he can fix everything himself.
38. When you go to a dance party, there is always a group of guys surrounding the dance floor trying to look cool.
39. Your house/aparment is always cold in winter, and hot in summer.
40. Your Mom drives her Mercedes to Foodtown, or Shoppers Food Warehouse regardless how far it is, even if the dairy is next door.
41. You always look phone numbers up in the phone book, since calling Directory Assistance costs 50 cents.
42. You only make long distance calls after 11pm or during weekends.
43. You prefer your shrimp with the heads and legs still attached.
44. You never call your parents just to say hi.
45. You think ONLY Japanese can make good CARS!
46. You use a colored face cloth every morning.
47. You starve yourself before going to all-you-can-eat places.
48. Almost all your money is in a savings account
49. You never discuss your love life with your parents.

And Last But Not Least

50. You take this message and forward it to all your Asian friends.
From 1 proud Asian to another, forward this to every damn Asian you know.

funny rite? hahahaa
the highlighted ones are the ones that really true, bcos they happened in my family XD
actually i think most of it is so damn true, don't u think so?
i got this from my cousin, lisa agustina's blog, like her blog, but she didn't update it anymore :(
okay then, just wanna share it with you :)
good night all!

home alone

2010-07-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

10pm, raining, freezing, boring, lonely.
that's my condition rite now.
actually i love being home alone, but not tonight.
maybe because this damn cold weather
maybe because the thing i think is good being said not good at all, yep, sort of disappointed feeling :(
maybe because of tired
i wanna laugh rite now :( but nobody's here to make me laugh and i'm not crazy enough to laugh alone.
so what i'm doing rite now is typing on my laptop, bitching in my blog :/
my blog is so dark and gloomy now :(
i'm turning dark and gloomy too
i hate myself here! i'm so ugly and fat!
sighh, i really need to get a haircut ASAP.
but have to wait my fringe gets longer first, u know, becos i cut it myself days ago, and i cut it too short, which makes my face looks so big and i look so stupid X(
okay okay i don't wanna make my blog worse with all this complaints anymore
gonna get into my warm and cozy blanket now
but, before i say good night, let's say:

CONGRATULATION SPAIN!!

yep, spain has got ticket to the final round of fifa world cup 2010 versing netherland
and obviously spain will win! XD
can't wait to watch the match, so regret i didn't watch spain vs germany yesterday :(
just can't wake up even i've made alarm
i promise myself i'll watch the final match!
and see live spain becomes the champion of fifa world cup 2010! YEAH!

okay then, finally, good night fellas..
have a nice weekend :)

we're already halfway to 2011!

2010-07-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

time goes so fast!
6 months more we'll shout happy new year! :D
saying good bye to june, the month i love the most :(
why june? because it's holiday month, ♥ sale month ♥ , end of a semester month, well, exam month also, i hate days of exam! so actually there're some days i hate from june too :p
so let's see what've i done so far in this 2010 :
- go to college
- missing my family so much :(
- got a not-bad result for this semester
- got a job :)
- broke up with my boyfriend :'(

well, the last one isn't so nice rite?
sighh, that's my decision though, a very hard one, i know i'll regret someday, but still.. :(
well, that's life, sometimes you feel like flying up the sky and get into the heaven, sometimes you feel like falling from the highest ladder in the world and after that the ladder falls and hits you on the heart and head hahahaa
a lil' bit exaggerating, but it's true

okay, change topic.
i got a job at kfc by the way hehehe
my first job :) will do my best!

in my too big kfc uniform :( the manager said it's the smallest size, yeah, i think it is the smallest size, for men :( and i look short in it.

well, june has passed, now, let's welcome july
july, the new semester, new classroom, new teacher, new friends :)
hope everything gonna be better and better
good luck everybody!
have a nice weekend :D

the first day of july's sky in perth, ♥ it! even it's damn freezing :)

complicated..

2010-06-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

i always want everything in my life simple.
born in a simple and full of love family (i am :)
have a simple school life, not famous but have bestfriends
marry a guy i love
have another simple and full of love family
see my children grow up day by day
and if it's time, die peacefully in the arms of the one i love
well, it seems so simple and easy rite?
but in the way of getting it, complicated things are unavoidable
especially for woman which has complicated mind -.-
sometimes i don't even understand what i want
actually i'm the one who makes things complicated
i can't make a final decision, i don't even have courage to make it
sigghh :(
how i wish just to be a simple minded girl, but you know, just from my palm lines you can see that i'm a very complicated thinker ahahaa
i know life won't just goes as i wanted
problems will come, and i have to face it like a man!
well, even i'm not a man hehehe
hope everything's gonna be fine
wish me luck!

my favorite ♥ XD

2010-06-21T15:08:00.000+08:00

hey, it's world cup season!
i always want to post about world cup since it started, but just didn't in that mood lately

but i think it's not too late to talk 'bout it now, rite? hehe
well, i'm not football freak or a very big fan of it, but i like watching big tournament like world cup or euro
and i have some favorite players too :D

here are top 3 of my favorite players:

Ricardo Kaka from Brazil ♥

XD
aaaahhh, he's just so cute!! ♥ XD

Fernando Torres from Spain ♥

this was before he got haircut, i prefer the after haircut above :)

Sergio Ramos, Fernando Torres and Cesc Fabregas XD

from spain♥

ahh, a very good looking midfielder XD ♥

they're all very skillful and of course handsome ;p
well, i like lionel messi (argentina) and iker casillas (spain) too, but those three above are my favorite :)

i miss...

2010-06-18T19:45:00.000+08:00

i miss the time when my dad woke me up with his soft voice and left without making sure that i've really awaken or not, and then 30 mins later, my mom will wake me up and said "why you're still sleeping?? you're late already!" and i'll blame my dad because he didn't wake me up and asked him to drive faster hahaa
i miss every morning when i ate my full course breakfast - boiled egg, noodle/fried rice/bread, milk - all made by my mom. and i still complained: "mom, i don't wanna eat egg! i don't like it!" but still, i saw a boiled egg every morning hahaa. and then sometimes, when i was so late already, i didn't drink the milk. sighh. how i wanna eat that egg and drink every single drops of the milk now.
i miss my mom's caress on my hair
i miss my dad's joke
yeah, i think i'm homesick hahaa
regretting my decision not going back to medan :'(

dad & mom, just how i love them :')

my family

Miss them so much much much!! X'<

feel like crying

2010-06-18T19:11:00.000+08:00

i feel so down and lonely these days
just how i wanna share things with somebody
how i wanna be hugged warmly and hear "everything's gonna be okay" by somebody
how i wanna laugh carefreely
how i wanna be texted by somebody saying let's go to shopping tomorrow
and how i wanna sit in a cafe with friends talking about something fun
T.T
keep telling myself lonely makes you independent and mature
and really hope it's true
because if not, i'll be very pathetic, right?

♥ nodame cantabile

2010-06-17T16:53:00.000+08:00

i love nodame very much!! the manga, the anime, the drama, the movie, i love them all! XD
you see? it's just so good that it's made into drama and movie :D
it's about orchestra, classical music. it sure is very good! the actress is beautiful, the actor (i think he resembles ariel peterpan a lot! XD) is cool, they just make everything perfect in my eyes. watching nodame cantabile makes me regret not learning any instruments in my life :(
really want to become part of their amazing life.
but i'm wondering if tamaka hiroshi (the male main character) can really play piano, violin and conduct an orchestra, or it's just merely in a movie. well it doesn't matter if he can't though, not expecting there's really a perfect man like chiaki hahaha

found some pics to share with you guys hehe

nodame & chiaki :D the manga version ♥

Aaaaaaaaaaaaa XD

the drama version, this is S orchestra :D

tamaka hiroshi as chiaki shinichi, do u agree he resemble ariel peterpan?

ueno juri! she is so cute!!! i like her so much! XD

♥

ah, the top pic is when chiaki said "let's go to europe together" XD

if you love music, don't miss it ;)
click here if you wanna know more about nodame cantabile ♥

^^

chocolate factory! ♥♥

2010-06-10T22:25:00.000+08:00

i went to chocolate factory last sunday, when cib exam was on the air :D

never regret it, because chocolate is everywhere!! it's like heaven for a chocolate lover like me, ah and ryan too, my cute little cousin, he's the one who pushed me to go
will absolutely go there again!

almost buy this one, but remembering that i'll eat it myself just like that made me a lil' sad :/

this is FREE! i took a lot, didn't care when people stared at my full of this chocolate palm, i'm indonesian dude! ;p

the chocolate machine, it's weird, never know chocolate is made from this kind of machine

oh, i also went to the nougat factory

:d

^^

a big slap on my face

2010-05-28T22:09:00.000+08:00

When one loves somebody, everything is clear - where to go, what to do - it all takes care of itself and one doesn't have to ask anybody about anything.

- Maxim Gorky

♥ my first handmade cake ♥

2010-05-24T21:18:00.000+08:00

i made chocolate molten cake today! :D
got the recipe from my girl stella lowis
well, it didn't turn out as well as i expected, the thin chocolate which supposed to be coming out when you bite it doesn't come out :(
quiet disappointing, but the kids said it's still delicious hehehe
and i realize it's not a lie when i ate my second one, yeah, it's delicious :)
well, even the cake doesn't turn out like stella's-which looks so good, and of course, because she is an expert in patisserie ;)- it's acceptable since this is my first time making a cake like this hehee hope i can do better next time :)

stella's :d

fresh from the oven :D

mine is like ugly duck compared to stella's :(

autumn is coming :D
the street is filled with yellowish brown leaves now
i like it! XD

and i like the sound when i stepped on the leaves :D

^^

Pissed off!

2010-05-22T19:47:00.000+08:00

i'm so angry and offended!
who the hell is tht people think tht people is?! saying people stupid and act like the smartest and wisest people in the world!! always insult people and think it's funny?! God! i hate people like this! sighh!
i don't wanna think about it anymore, just make me grow old quicker :/
just hope tht people can stop insulting others like this and act down to earth, i doubt it though
tht people is too smug, can't be helped anymore, ckckck

well, found this cool pics in the website but i've forgot the address

what a beautiful wedding dress! i wanna have wedding dress like this too! :D

i like this pic so much! i think the pose is so cool!

happy is when you die and go to heaven, so do charity more, help people. this is the meaning i got when i saw this pic :)

well, i wanna watch new moon with kids now hehehe
wanna forget this annoying thing soon, hope edward and jacob can help me :p

byee, have a happy weekend all!

^^

bye assignments! :D

2010-05-19T21:13:00.000+08:00

today i have finished all my assignments for this semester!
so happy! i did all well i think hehehe :) *smug
well, there's still a final exam though, hope i do it well also
wish me luck guys! :D
so this morning at 8.30am, to be specific, haha, i had group presentation,
and we were the first group to present. Lucky us! :p
well, at first, i'm very very nervous, never expect i will do well,
i'm not a confident person u know :(
but, when it's my turn to speak, actually it's not that scary, and i think i did pretty well.
well, that's my thinking, i don't know what Jocelyn-my lecturer-thinks. :/
even she said all the good things like "you guys have set a very high standard for other group to surpass", and "well done" and "very professional"
but i still don't think she will give us high distinction :/
well, everything is past. stop thinking 'bout it!
i have done my best and if the result is bad, i'll accept it gracefully! (hope i really can ;p)

okay then, i wanna share the pics from today's presentation, i'm wearing formal, and everybody said i look like a successful business woman! :D well, that's a lie hahaha xp

this is what i look like today, and i wore a simple 3cm black high heels :)

this is De'Mwafiwi consultancy! from the right, william heng (CEO), mwaba mulonga (Managing director), fini phan (public relations manager), and me (Human resources manager) XD

the girls!:)

with the funny fini hahaha :D

with the coolest CEO-who wore blink blink tie-william lol ^^V

ah, and my third sister has graduated! i don't know what's her title, but congratz tot (this is the way i call her, and i've forgot why i call her so)! :D

my sister and mom :D miss 'em so much!

now i wanna sleep! not feel well because my gums is swollen :(
maybe because i ate too many chocolate.
okay then, good night everybody!
let's end today with a smile and start tomorrow with brighter smile :)

always forget people's faults and remember their kindness, this will make your life better

i learn this quote from my chinese school.
i know it's very hard to approach, but let's try together :)

^^

Sad memories

2010-05-11T19:43:00.000+08:00

today, for some reasons, all the sad memories come out to my head
sad memories that i wish i can forget
sad memories that always draw my tears
sad memories that cut my heart so deep and hit my soul
my life line palmistry reading that i had on facebook is so true:

"There were some restrictions on you in your childhood in school/home"

everytime i look back to those memories, i understand that hard life is inevitable
and when you've tired of all the cryings, you will start to laugh at the bad things that come out in the future
every problem will have its remedy
and it's decided by yourself
so i hope i have chosen the right remedy to my problem
i will try to not regret it even i know i will
maybe i'm the stupidest person in the world
maybe i'll be scorned by everybody
but i think i've made the best decision regarding the situation now

good luck to myself

and good night to all of you

In God's hands

2010-05-11T19:18:00.000+08:00

Keep repeating this song lately,

I looked at your face I saw that all the love had died
I saw that we had forgotten to take the time
I, I saw that you couldn't care less about what you do
Couldn't care less about the lies
You couldn't find the time to cry

We forgot about love
We forgot about faith
We forgot about trust
We forgot about us

Now our love's floating out the window
Our love's floating out the back door
Our love's floating up in the sky in heaven
Where it began back in God's hands

You said that you had said all that you had to say
You said baby it's the end of the day
And we gave a lot but it wasn't enough
We got so tired that we just gave up

We didn't respect it
We went and neglected it
We didn't deserve it
But I never expected this

Our love floated out the window
Our love floated out the back door
Our love floated up in the sky to heaven
It's part of a plan
It's back in God's hands
Back in God's hands

It didn't last
It's a thing of the past
Oh we didn't understand
Just what we had
Oh I want it back
Just what we had
Oh I want it back
Oh just what we had

-Nelly Furtado

♥BEACH♥

2010-04-24T22:38:00.000+08:00

went to the scarborough beach today :D
the beach is so beautiful and clean, the thing that indonesia's beaches don't have :/
if indonesia's beaches can as clean as here's, then i think it will be more beautiful than here :(
well, i can't tell you with words about how beautiful it is
but i hope these photos can show you :)

the sun is amazing!

it's really difficult to take a pic of birds! when i just wanna took out my camera, they have flown away! but finally i can get one even it's small :)

i love this one! my best capture so far :D

actually this one is different beach, but i've forgot the name -.-'

the cafe(i think it's a cafe, not sure though, bcos i didn't go inside :p) beside the beach

what a tiring day! xo
so sleepy already, wanna sleep now..
good night all! :)

^^

I ♥ beauty pop! :D

2010-04-23T21:04:00.000+08:00

beauty pop is a full of laughs manga!
i can't stop laughing when i read it hahaha
even though i'm crying i still can laugh while reading it!
really! i'm not exaggerating!
well, i don't know if it will work for u guys, but it works for me
i love kiri so much! she is so cool!
wanna be like her someday hihihi :)
and i really like the ending!
kiri and narumi is married and have twins kids..
aah, so happy ending ♥
anyway, you must read it yourself, it's really good for refreshing :)
hope u'll like it too, like me, ah i'm addicted to it not just 'like' :p
enjoy it guys! laugh! cheers! :D

kiri! my favorite character ever!

when narumi tells kiri his feeling! aawww! XD

shampoo, kiri's cat! she is so cuteeee >.<

beauty pop's last page, i love the ending, but i hate an ending :'(

sometimes when i read it, i really wanna be part of it, like have them in my life or i'm part of them, it'll be cool! i always like this when i really like things i read, imagine if i'm inside the story and if the story is real.. i wonder other people are like that too? hmmm..
well then, i think that is it.
will post again when i feel like it hehee
happy Anzac day all! yaayy, another long weekend! :D
have fun! Bye :)

^^

my favorite ♥

2010-04-08T16:08:00.000+08:00

this is my favorite owlcity's sing, vanilla twilight :)
the melody is amazing and the lyric is so touching!
owlcity is fantastic!
♥ owlcity so much!
here's the lyric:

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear

Oh darling, I wish you were here

-owlcity ♥

^^

lalala finally lalaaa ♥♥

2010-04-07T14:03:00.000+08:00

finally the internet can be used again! hahaha :D

it has been closed since last month because of over-limit :( it's been awhile since the last time i updated my blog, so many things i wanna share with u guys but maybe too many until i don't know what to write anymore hahaha but photos always help me to solve this problem :)
and there's a very good quotation about photo that i like so much :

'the best thing about a picture is it never changes even when the people in it do'

i got it from my charismatic (:p) friend, ipit's tweet and she got it from @ihatequotes

okay then, here are the photos!

it's ryan 11th birthday cake! :D

happy birthday ryan!:D

big storm in perth, stone ice were falling from the sky!

the rainbow after the storm :) so beautiful! it's a round shape but my camera can't take it all :(

emm, forget the place's name already hehe.. it's a casino, i just went there to have lunch, because without passport i can't enter it :(

easter chocolate bunny, happy easter all!:D the prizes ryan won from his school! so many, and all is chocolate! i'll gain fat soon :/

i love this pic so much!!! the colour, the background, all the little things in this picture just seem perfect in my eyes! don't know why haha

so since i like it very much, it has become my phone's wallpaper ;)

and my laptop's wallpaper too ;p

those photos represent my interesting days, the rest of my days are just about school, assignment, skill tasks, essay and another boring things :(
oh btw, my CIB100 essay is almost done! so happy with that!:D
but still, i don't know if it's good or bad :( ah, whatever, at least i've done my best!
that's a good news to tell hehe one assignment done, less stressing day ;p
but next week will be a tough one, accounting mid-semester exam, business law skill task 2 :'(
hmm, so many things i have to do..
okay then, good bye all!
happy easter and have a nice day!

^^

new layout :D

2010-03-13T23:02:00.000+08:00

yaayyy! new layout! hihihihii..
love my new layout so much, simple and pure, makes me feel comfortable when i see it, hope u can feel the same feeling too :) my last blog layout seems so dead, although i like it too, but i need new atmosphere, more lively one! so i picked this white one hehehe..
yeah, i add new song too! really love the song, and the meaning, it makes me feel not worry and happier hahahaha.. (lebay yah :p)
but i really love the song, it's from an old movie, cocktails :) here's the lyric:

Here is a little song I wrote
You might want to sing it note for note
Don't worry be happy
In every life we have some trouble
When you worry you make it double
Don't worry, be happy......

Ain't got no place to lay your head
Somebody came and took your bed
Don't worry, be happy
The land lord say your rent is late
He may have to litigate
Don't worry, be happy
Look at me I am happy
Don't worry, be happy
Here I give you my phone number
When you worry call me
I make you happy
Don't worry, be happy
Ain't got no cash, ain't got no style
Ain't got not girl to make you smile
But don't worry be happy
Cause when you worry
Your face will frown
And that will bring everybody down
So don't worry, be happy (now).....

There is this little song I wrote
I hope you learn it note for note
Like good little children
Don't worry, be happy
Listen to what I say
In your life expect some trouble
But when you worry
You make it double
Don't worry, be happy......
Don't worry don't do it, be happy
Put a smile on your face
Don't bring everybody down like this
Don't worry, it will soon past
Whatever it is
Don't worry, be happy

the lyric's great rite? hope u like it too :)
okay then, time to sleep already!
good night all, sleep well!

^^

another day

2010-03-11T01:18:00.000+08:00

don't know why i always wake up with puffy eyes these days..
am i really 'don't know why?' hahaha i think i will just keep the answer for myself
my college has started, yesterday was my second class, CIB 100, communication in business, i really don't know anything about CIB, and i've already got an essay which worth 30%!
the essay is about a company, i got nike, we have to examine any aspect of the company's performance in society, and i know nothing about the aspect or whatever it is!
i'm really dead now! sigghh..
i even don't know where to start with, really need help, but i know i have to do everything by myself now, can't always wait for people to help me rite?
there're a lot of problem i have here, books that cost like hell, lack of communication skill i have, bad feeling which becomes worse and worse each day, and etc, etc, etc....
just hope everything can becomes better and better soon..
hope fortune always at my side..
miss mom and dad, miss my annoying sisters, miss everybody..
have a good day all..

^^

2010-03-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

Wake up on your own
And look around you cuz you’re not alone
Release your high hopes and they’ll survive
Cuz this is the future and you are alive

Dive in and swim away
From your loneliness and miserable days

And when you wake up on your own
Look around you cuz you’re not alone
Let your hopes go and they’ll survive
Cuz this is the future and you are alive

…You’re headed home

by owlcity-this is the future

saying goodbye is hard

2010-03-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

time flies really fast, sometime i really want time to slow down a lil' bit, so i can enjoy what i'm doing longer.. but i know it's just another impossible wish : (
my grandma just left home to the airport, it's sad, but i have to face it..
it's really hard to say good bye, especially with the one u love so much, and saying good bye without tears is harder than i've ever thought..
sometime i'm just wondering, why i want to study abroad like this, leaving all the people i love so much.. and you know what i can't find an answer to make myself satisfy, pity me..
i know i have to stop this melancholic thing, it's really not like me, i'm supposed to be a tough girl! hahaha.. :D
but it needs time to get use to everything here, i believe time can heals me : )
this is another page of my life i've chosen, i promise myself no regrets!
hope everything'll be just like i want..
:)
good night all, tomorrow i have to go to chinese school, so lazy -.-

hope all the creatures in this world can always be happy..

p.s. : really miss mom and dad so much :'(

new chapter : )

2010-02-27T09:13:00.000+08:00

I'M IN PERTH NOW!!!!

it's hot here, but i think ranto is hotter.. hahaha..
still don't have things to do these days, my college will start in march 3rd..
and today i went to mandarin's school to study with my cousins, but i'm not in the same level with 'em, yeah, of course i'm in higher level. huahahahaha.. :p
and fortunately i'm not the oldest there, i'm the second oldest, hahahaha..
oyah, btw, i've had bb plan here, i regret it a lot because it's too expensive!
it's 'bout idr 13 million in two years! AUD69 a month! but whatever, i have bought it, we can't turn back time, can we?
hmm.. i feel good now, and i hope i can still feel this good later, hope me always have good luck okay?:)

okay then, i'll show u guys a lil' part of my life here :)

my room, sorry it's a lil' bit messy ;)

another part of my room my favorite zone :)

mini cactus :D just bought it in the morning

mini case for small things, love it!

my new blackberry!

that's all! thanks for reading my blog, hope u enjoy it :)
good bye, have to dc now, take care fellas!

^^

a new day has come

2010-02-25T00:27:00.000+08:00

.....Let the rain come down and wash away my tears

Let it feel my soul and drown my fears

Let it shatter the walls for a new new sun

A new day has come.....

-Celine Dion

time goes really fast :(

2010-02-24T15:55:00.000+08:00

a day more, and i'll say good buy to medan :'(

everybody asked me if i am ready to leave, but i can't answer it
because i don't know either if i'm ready or not :(
some part of myself so exited with this, but another part just can't accept it. sigh..
it's really hard to say goodbye to mom&dad, to my sisters, to all my friends, and to him..
i don't know if everything can goes well like he said, i doubt it, but whatever.. :(
aaahhh!! i'm so nervous! hope i can survive there! >.<
i'm really busy these days, going out in the morning and come home at night.
so many things i have to prepare, so many things i have to buy, so many things i have to pack! and the worst thing is, my plane's schedule is 07.50AM, it means i have to wake up at 4! sigghhhh... :'(
okay, stop the mellow and unhappy things already, this's really not like me! :(
btw, my favorite indonesian author, ilana tan has published spring in london!
i've waited it for more than a year! and it really worth waited!
even i prefer summer in seoul and autumn in paris but spring in london is good too :)
and i fall in love with the male main character again, even i don't very like the name-danny.
you know, it's not the story that i like from ilana tan's books, but the use of words,
the combination of each word, it makes me wanna read it over and over again to remember all of it!
you think i'm exaggerating? maybe, but i do read it again and again hahaha..

there're so many photos i wanna share with u, but today i just feel like upload these three :) fyi, this is my new haircut and my new glasses :)

thank you :)

tomorrow is my last day here..
time really goes so fast..
:)
see you again fellas..
in another country..

^^

Happy Birthday!

2010-02-14T15:30:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to me!

yes, because my birthday is at the same day with sacap meh so i don't celebrate it at all :(
but thanks for the greeting all :) appreciate it so much!
and thanks for the present too lihung, liyin and lisia :D
it's just so cute!

the words are: buka disini(bold one) & happy birthday :)

earring and necklace, love 'em!:D

tomorrow is valentine, i don't celebrate it also because tomorrow is CNY!
hope i get many angpao! hahaha..
oyah, happy chinese new year all! and happy valentine day too! :)

^^

have a safe flight!

2010-01-28T13:02:00.000+08:00

with my cousins :D

the kids(who wear pajamas) will leave medan tomorrow, they're going back to Perth.
hope them have a safe flight..
good bye kids, see u guys next month :)

^^

♥♥♥

2010-01-26T12:44:00.000+08:00

♥

^^

Review

2010-01-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

had a trip to penang last week, go there with my parents and my uncle's family

had fun there, but there's a very resent thing happened, my new shopping bag was stolen!
i lost three pieces, a really cool vest, a dress for my sister, and a shirt which i adore so much!:'(
well, i know there's my fault forgot to take the shopping bag with me when i left,
but i came back for it as soon as i remembered! why people want to take things that are not theirs?! hate 'em who stole it!!! i really had lost my shopping mood since that accident, so i don't buy my imlek clothes, and i really regret it! :'(
well, there're some pics of my holiday there, here you are :)

with Leon my cousin:)candid:)
with 3 kids :D
i came back on sunday, 17th january 2010.
and in the evening of that sunday, i went to my sister's best friend's wedding
she became her bridesmaid, she is so beautiful and i have to admit that she's like vicki zhao! hahahaha.. :p
well, if you doubt me, i'll let you guys see it yourself hahaha..

here she is, like vicki zhao lil' sister rite? hahaha..

with meee:Dcendiani, lilys tan, me, and christine ou.

okay, i have to dc already, want to watch american idol!
adios...

^^

sis' wedding party @ medan

2009-12-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

today is so bussyyyyy.....

woke up at 7 a.m., and finished dressing up at 7.40 a.m.
at 08.15 a.m. my house has already crowded..
so many things happen today, today is a very important day for my big sis
today my sis'll become a wife, and from now on she'll live happily ever after with her husband.. :)
hmm.. i admit, it's a lil sad for not having her in this house anymore but someday, it'll happen to all women, isn't it?:)
well, these are the photos of the party, honestly i don't very confident with my appearance today :(
i feel like an ugly duck compared with my sisters and cousins huhuhu :'(

my appearance today, is it dissapointing?:(
blue &white:)
the bridal couple is singing love letter:D the bride:)with him:)

^^

sis' wedding party @ ranto

2009-12-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

what a tiring saturday night!

today is my big sister's wedding party, we celebrate it at suzuya hotel, rantau prapat.
actually, this is the bride side party, the groom side will be celebrated in grand angkasa at 23rd.
if u ask me what's the meaning of this bride groom sides, i'll say i don't understand.
because there're really so many useless(sorry) things in chinese wedding, i really don't understand what all of that for..-.-'
but the party was fun, even i felt so tired..
and u know what, i'm very unlucky today..
in the morning when i woke up, i realized tht i've lost my voice!
and, the most unbelievable thing is i get eyesore! can u believe it??
the party was tonight! ckckck..
fortunately, my sis said my eyes're not that red..

okay, there're some photos of the event, here u are:)

this is how i look like tonight:)

and for God's sake, wearing long dress really difficult!
so many time i almost found myself kissing the floor :(
but fortunately my balance is not like bella's :p

well, it's midnight already.. time to sleep!
bonsoir guys:D

^^

happy birthday irene arifin!

2009-12-13T18:03:00.000+08:00

yep. today is my crazy friend nep-tune's birthday!:))
happy birthday nepp!!
wish u all the best, and hope u can become great doctor!
here is the birthday girl:

with me hehe

^^

international saturday night!:D

2009-12-13T15:43:00.000+08:00

tonight, i was going to my big sis' boyfriend's birthday party
he celebrates at happy puppy, it means karaoke time! hehehe..
have a great time tonight:)
and i met 2 american people which are friends of him,
they're so good in singing!
and their indonesian language is good too!
here some pics of tonight party:

i'm the photographer here:/

the girls:)

thanks for the birthday man, Antonius Howard:)
happy birthday, wish u all the best!

^^

my best buy of the month!:D

2009-11-19T18:24:00.000+08:00

have brunch with sister and cousins at babura today..
after that go to sun's 21 to buy 2012 ticket..
but...
can't get one, because all the studios are already full!
can u imagine it?? today is wednesday, but why all people seem to be don't have job or school?? ckckck..
but, although we don't get the ticket, i find this at minimal!

beautiful isn't it? i think this is my best buy. love it so much!:D

so this is today..
tomorrow? will be a special day.. :)

happy birthady in! :D

2009-11-10T18:04:00.000+08:00

yap! today is my cousin lilys b'day.

happy twentieth birthday yin! wish u all the best!
and may all ur dreams come true..
oh! almost forget the most important thing, hope ur future business
gains succeed always..^^
she celebrates at lembur kuring.

here is one of the photos of her b'day:

yuhuuu.. eight goddess! hahaha.. :p

so many people have their birthday this month..
wondering who's next?
and find the answer straightaway..
:)

^^

Happy birthday mom!:D

2009-11-09T17:38:00.001+08:00

today, 9th November is my mom's b'day!

happy birthday mom, wish u all the best! hehe..
we celebrate it at Trattoria, italian restaurant..
these are the pics:my mom is fifty-two this year.. :)

we'll celebrate ur birthday again 50 years later,
of course we will, rite mom?;)

love u so much mom..
u're the best mom for me.. :')

^^

desperate :(

2009-10-27T15:21:00.000+08:00

everything just goes wrong..
i just want to make an end..
but i really don't have courage to say it..
and the condition is so not supporting..
sigghh.. :'(

long time no blog..=)

2009-10-20T14:07:00.000+08:00

hi all!

it's been sometimes since the last time i blogged.. hehe..
yah, actually i played the sims3 a lot recently..
but, i've bored with it... :(
so yesterday i searched for some forgotten movies from the drawer
and find this
i really love this movie..
it has been added into my fav movie list..
and i love marley too.. when it was dying, i just couldn't stop crying..
i heart dogs.. and i want to have one badly.. :(

hmm.. really don't have things to write anymore..
someday, i'll update my blog again.. hehe.. see u fellas..^^

oh, just wanna share some fun things from my past days:

a gift=)

last hang out with 'rantoers', because sarah n winny were going to KL
to continue their study.. gonna miss them.. :'(

^^

confuse

2009-10-06T22:42:00.000+08:00

yeah, it's really confusing when there are too many choices..
why there are so many english courses in medan??
if there is only one, i won't be confused like this.. haha..
hope i can find the right one soon!
=)

btw, i just watched public enemies yesterday..
and i have decided to be Johnny Depp's fans!
he is so charismatic!!!>.< look..
he is so handsome rite?

^^